cinaflower
need motivation!
Oct 29, 2011
I've been on a plateau but I'm finally starting to lose again- now at 234.4. I've been struggling staying on track and doing what I need to do- protein, fluid- I tell myself I'm doing okay- but I have no idea because I don't pay attention too much. I sporadically take my vitamins, I know I'm not eating too much- but that's mostly because I can't. My head hunger gets me and I eat things that I used to enjoy, things I tell myself would be FUN to eat- I really don't overdo it, but I DO it sometimes and I know I shouldn't be eating any sugary things. I made gumbo last Sunday and I really have been suffering ever since- I don't know if it was the fat or what- but I had horrible acid reflux, and gas that would kill a moose. OMG! Thank goodness the husband had his CPAP mask on the other night- it was so bad! I hurt my back this week so I've been a vegetable- when my back started getting better then it started into my legs and hips. I haven't been sleeping awesomely so my fibromyalgia is kicking my ass right now.I need motivation. I need to remember why I went through the trouble to do this surgery. I need to capitalize on this opportunity to be the person I've always wanted to be and knew I could be. I'm struggling to stay focused and do what I need to do. I need to exercise and stop eating when I don't need to- just like before- but now I really don't even care about eating and I do it anyway. Not smart. I can do better- I thought it'd be easier- but is anything worth having really easy? I don't think so.
