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I haven't blogged in quite a while.  I'm about 85# down.  This is the first holiday season that I haven't gained weight.  I actually lost a couple of pounds.  I did alot of tasting and that was fine.  I can still only eat so much.  I bought a pair of size 10 jeans the other day.  I wore them for the first time today.  I took them off the hanger and  just looked at them thinking, "Damn, those are small!"  Then I went to the mirror and held them up in front of me and compared the two sizes.  "Yep, those'll fit." I thought.  Unbelievable.  Un-freakin'-believable.  I need to put some new pics up. 

 Last week I went back to work.  I can tell my pace is quicker and I'm feeling lighter on my feet.  Meals are easier as I eat a little bit frequently.  A hard boiled egg is the perfect meal...it fills me up and stays with me for a while.  I make sugar free jello pudding and put a scoop of protein powder in a batch, then separate it out into 1/2 cup increments, which is perfect for me.  Apple sauce, 1/2 cup. Cantaloupe, which is in season right now.  V8 juice, perfect. Remember, I work 12 hr shifts so I need several small snacks to get me through.  I'm down almost 26# and feeling great.  Oh, when I switched to real food about 2 1/2 weeks ago, I was really having a hard time with amounts.  I think my mind saw real food and wanted to go back to the old me and the old amounts.  The old me scarfs food down like it's my last meal and I only have 2 minutes to eat it.  I also had issues with quantity, which goes hand in hand.  You eat too fast and you miss your body's hunger cues that say, "OK stupid, you're full, stop eating."  I went through 50 years of that, now I'm trying to change it?  Yeah I am.  Or I puke.  I eat too fast or the least little bit too much and I feel horrible and end up having to puke.  That's just the way it is.  I think I'm finally figuring it out, though.

Yeah...my latest challenge is learning how to eat slowly...which I have never done a day in my life.  If I eat slowly then my body knows when it's full and doesn't bypass the triggers.  Holy mackerel, if I eat too fast, I eat too much, then I'm wanting to vomit and feeling generally lousy.  How long do you think this 50 year old will take to learn this?  We'll see, because I hate to puke. 

Well, went to my PCP last week and  he prescribed Protonix, which has helped greatly.  I've also increased my Tums to about 6-7/day (max dosage), that has helped as well.

I am just now introducing real food into my diet now, rather than just soft or baby foods.  The first night I ate too much and was so flippin' uncomfortable had to make myself vomit a couple times.  I have NEVER done that in my life but I was so uncomfortable I just had to.  My stomach still only has the capacity of about 1/2 cup of food.  I can do a little more liquid.  Liquid doesn't bother me as much.  Go figure.

So last night I slowed way down (which is going to be another learned behavior for me...it's always been such a race!) and actually ate 1/2 piece of fish and it was so yummy!!!  Baked Panko breaded Tilapia...yum!  I knew exactly when I was full and didn't overdo it at all.

My ongoing problem since I had my sleeve has been nausea...what's up with that??  I can eat, I don't puke, but the nausea...good grief!  Saw my PCP yesterday, he took me off my BP and cholesterol meds (YAY!), and put me on Protonix, said hopefully that will decrease the acid production and I'll feel better.  Not that I feel "bad", more annoyed than feeling bad.  But it is getting old. 

 I see my PCP this week to go over my medications.  My BP has been running in the high 80s and you know, that kind of makes you feel a little tired, funky.  I'm tempted to stop it myself but they always say not to.  So maybe my BP will be in the toilet by the time I see him, LOL!

I've lost about 17# since surgery.  I've dropped almost 2 sizes.  I'm using our guest room to pull all my clothes out and sort them, the ones that aren't fitting.  I've been going to thrift stores to buy clothes.  That's been fun!  Working on my tan while I'm off work.  I am soooo enjoying being off work.  I have hoarded my time for 3 years in order to have it to have surgery.  I also need to get my knee replaced but I wanted to do this first.  I thought my recovery would go smoother than if I were 200+ lbs.

I am so glad I went this route.  I am not regretting it at all!  I never thought I would though.

It just dawned on me that I haven't had a BM since the 25th or 26th, is that the source of my discomfort??  I took some Miralax this morning and I'm churning away.  Ugh.

We did a lot of walking yesterday.  Seems like every other day I am bursting full of energy...that was yesterday, not so much today.  I think because I'm full of something else 

 

I think I might be having some lactose intolerance issues.  I'm not really sure because I've never had any issues with it before.  I made some SF jello pudding and added extra protein in it and everytime I eat it I get all gassy with epigastric pain and don't get comfy until the gas passes one way or the other.

Other than that, I feel great!  I've been out in the yard.  Earlier today before the winds started, I was watering trees.  I think I'll continue that in the morning.  Our poor trees need some water. 

Surgery was last Tues., May 24, this is post op day 3.  I sure haven't eaten much, can't believe I haven't dropped more than I have, but I digress.   I am so glad the stress of surgery is over.  The first day was a bear and I thank God that day has come and gone because it was horrible.  One of my friends who had the sleeve done a couple-three years ago told me she even wondered if she'd made the right decision about having this done because she felt so bad as well.  I never thought that...only because so many people told me this was just a bump in the road, that it would get better, and they were right.  THEY WERE RIGHT!!!  I kind of wish more people had warned me about that first day because I was a little blindsided by it, but I don't know if I would had believed them or listened anyway.  Doesn't matter now, it's over with!  YAY ME!!

I am so excited!  I feel like today is the first day of the rest of my life.  I'll miss my doggies while I'm in the hospital but I'll be back soon to love on them!