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This weight loss is kind of like marriage to me.  In some ways it seems like yesterday and in others I am all ready forgetting what it was like to be Morbidly Obese.  I have me back again.  As of this morning I am 139 so I am officially back into the 130s and that is the smallest I can ever remember being (131 to be exact)  The weight loss I am experiencing right now is pretty effortless.  I had thought I was finished losing but it is coming off again.  It is strange I can go up 4-5 lbs some times but then when those lbs come off more comes with them.  Next month will be a year and if you would have asked me a year ago I could not have predicted how this would go.  I was so afraid that I would be the exception to the rule.  I did not allow myself to say that aloud too much but in my heart the fear was there.  Now I am a success and wonder where this train will stop.  I am enjoying life and how I feel and look and not really trying to lose anymore.  if I do lose the last 9 lbs that I have as goal on my ticker that is great, if not that is great as well.
I still want plastics, lower body lift, inner thigh, upper arms and breast augmentation.  I hope that this time next year I have done it but my plastic account is taking a beating this month.  DH has to buy a new truck since the company is doing away with the fleet vehicles.  They will be giving us an allowance but in the mean time we need the cash.  So the account is going back down again.  Oh well.  At least I am getting my Varicose Veins fixed.  The first leg will be done on Friday and the second leg on October 16th.  Since I was in my teens I have had budging veins in my legs so this will be quite a treat for me.  Keep your fingers crossed that it gets rid of most of the spider veins for me as well.
Anyway I think I have rambled enough for this month.  I just want to say again, if you are on the fence about surgery DO IT!!!!

As I get closer and closer to the one year mark I look back and can not believe how much my life has changed since this time last year.  I was just getting really serious about wanting surgery but did not think I would be able to get the funds and was very discouraged,  Now at 10 months out I am down to 142 and yesterday I was wearing a pair of size 5 Levis!!!  I am offically down to a size 6 which I find strange since I only lost 3 lbs since I was in an 8 but I am excied anyway.  I would like to lose another 12 lbs but I am not in any hurry any longer.  People who have not seen me in months dont reconize me when they see me.  Between the weight loss, short hair cut and new hair color I look like a different person.  I also feel like a different person.  I am seriously looking into plastic surgery for several things: tummy tuck (or Lower body lift I have not decided) inner thigh lift, upper arms and breast augumentation.  That is a lot I know but I dont have great skin.  My arms dont bother me too much but they bother my DH (he admited when I asked) so if he wants to pay for them hey I will fix them :-D  After looking at my insurance policy it is not too hard to get my TT paid for but I just have to find a plastic surgeon to work with .  The first one I called said they wont file it so I have aother one who should call me back on Monday.  If I can get it in before the end of this year it will cost me NOTHING since I have met my out of pocket amount on my insurance.  I am getting the Veins in my legs fixed in October so that will be nice as well.  

It has only taken me 9 months to get to a normal BMI.  I find that amazing.  I currently weigh 145 and at 5'4" that is not too bad!  I want to lose 15 more "vanity" pounds but I feel pretty good allready.  It is so awesome to no longer be overweight.  I wear a ladies size 8 now or a juniors 9.  I would love to get to a ladies 4 one day but I am happy to be where I am right now :)

Yesterday made 8 months since my surgery.  So much has happened to improve my life in this time.  The only negitive was I had to have my gall bladder out this past weekend and I am recovering from that right now.  I reached my goal of 150lbs this month and only have 5 more to go to be normal.  I dont even know how many years it has been since I was normal, I think it has been 11.  I dont have too much to say this month but if anyone is reading this trying to decide weather or not to have this surgery, I can not make your decision for you but I can say it was the best decision I have ever made.

I am seven months out today.  Life is so much better with out the extra 63 lbs I was packing around.  Someone said a car tire weighs about 20 lbs so 3 tires gone.  i need to lose a full set to be normal.  An NSV i went to the beach for vacation this month and was not mortified in a bathing suit.  No I am not a hottie in it by any means but not horrible either.  I much prefer myself with clothes on.  All that being said this is my first month to have weight loss less than 5 lbs.  That is a downer but it is all my fault.  I ate junk food quite often and did not watch my  protein.  We went on vacation and I snacked all 6 hours there and all 6 hours back.  Also I drank ever day during vacation along with everyone else this time so that was extra calories.  I had gained 5 lbs but have been back on track since Tue (the day after we drove home) and I am less than a lb from my starting point this month.  i plan to stay on track.  Also I am starting a new deal with my DH.  We each have to go to the gym 3 times a week.  For every day we miss we owe the other person $10. b this means if we both go no money exchanges hands but if he goes 3 times and I go none I owe him $30.  We have separate accounts so we will really feel it!  NEXT month I WILL have a loss of at least 5 lbs to post.

Today I am 6 months our from surgery.  What milestones have I reached?

1. I can cross my legs easily, and keep them crossed
2. I have energy
3. I feel confident when I am in a crowd
4. I am comfortable in somthing that does not go all the way to my ankles
5. I went from a 18W to a Size 10!!!!
6. I can go out to dinner and enjoy myelsf without gorging myself
7. I took a family picture for the first time in almost 5 years!

I am so happy with my loss to date and am down 59.5 lbs and know that the future is evcern brighter than I can imagine.  I hope to reach my goal by my one year anniversary and with less than 30 lbs to go I think that will be easy.  My weight loss has become a little more eratic this month but that is OK.  As long as I lose an average of 5 lbs a month I will be able to dance the victory dance.

For you newbies out there.  Dont stress that you are losing slower than you want.  As long as you work your tool you will get there.  Those of you considering the surgery, GO FOR IT.  it is the best present you can give yourself and your family.

I was planning to post this once I got to weigh again but I will go ahead since my oldest daughter Katherine has the flu and post today.  I lost 8lbs this month.  since Feb was 28 days that still puts me at 2 lbs a week.  This is still staying steady so far and hopefully it keeps up.  I was at 169 my last weigh in and have a goal weight of 135 listed on my profile.  I would like to lose more maybe but homnestly at 135 I am a 6 and I am not sure how I will look now smaller than that.  I was a 4 before kids but that puts me pretty small.  I guess I will cross that bridge when I get to it.  My goal for the month of March was to be at 169 and I am there, now i have revised it to weight 169 on my Drs scale.  Since I weigh there fully clothed in the afternoon I need to be at about 166 for that.  I go next Monday so it is a possibility but it will be close.  I LOVE my sleeeve and would difinitly do it all over again.  The amount of food I eat feels normal to me and i love that.  I do not feel deprived at all.  I hope my story will hep others that are considering this opperation.

I just got back from a 2 week long business/ vacation trip to Los Angeles, CA.  I spent about 1/2 the time working and the other time spending money faster than I can make it (Just doing my part of stimulating the local economy you know)  I was not that good food wise while I was there so I was pleasantly surprised to find I still lost 4 lbs when I was gone.  That gives me a total weight loss this month of 9 lbs.  I have lost 44 since my surgery 4 months ago and am now exacly halfway to my goal.  I am also offically out of the 180s into the 170!  I have not been here in over 8 years.  This is an awesome experience.  I can still onlyu eat a small amount but it is a little more than I could eat a few months back.  Normally I limit my carbs although I dont count them and I focus on the protein.  I hope that things can keep up at this rate.  since week 3 I have basically lost 2lbs a week almost every week and that is great for me.  IF , I kniow this is a big IF i keep loosing at this rate I should be at goal by the end of July. My true time goal is my birthday on October 9, right before my Surgery anniversary on Oct 22.  So anyway keeping my fingers crossed, and my legs(since I can now cross them again LOL)

On a side note while I was in LA on Rodeo Drive I met Lenardo DiCaprio I will post pics this week as soon as I can get them from my SILs camera!

I am 3 months out today and down a total of 35 lbs.  I am at 188 today and it feels pretty good.  I am not losing as fast as some but I have not had any true stalls either.  I am losing a pretty steady 2 lbs a week and if I keep this up for month 4 I will be one happy camper. I tried on a size 14 skirt today and it was HUGE on me, OK it was a Vera Wang and they run large evidently but that fell soooo awesome.  My next weight loss goal is 174 because at that point   I will be only overweight and no longer obese.  Hopefully I reach it by March 11th.  Wish me luck!

Today I was a bad bad girl.  For the first time (I have had at lest 6 other holiday parties) I grazed for 3 hours!  I had been so good at all the other parties that I thought I was strong enough to not do this but I did it anyway.  My cousin had made Chocolate Truffles  and I ate 2 of them!!!!!  Plus the nibbling on other items.  I only have 2 more parties to go counting The New Years Blowout at my house and I am looking forward to going back to normal life.  This constant food and travel has me worn out.  OH well at least this is only once a year that it is this bad.  As of yesterday I have not gained back anything so that is something at least.  I hope to see the pounds going away agin next week.