Old profile weight history.

Jun 11, 2009

June 2009:  165.  Slight rebound when taking Clomid... doc said it doesn't cause weight gain? My butt tells a different story!

 Recent History:1/5/08 = 201; 1/13/08 = 197.8; 2/1/08 = 191.4; 2/10/08 = 185.6; 2/23/08 = 186.6; 3/8/08 = 176.8; 3/16/08 = 176.8; 3/22/08 = 175.6; 3/29/08 = 174.8; 4/7/08 = 172.2; 4/13/08 = 168.8; 4/20/08 = 167.6; 5/3/08 = 166.8; 5/13/08 = 164.6; 5/25/08 = 159.2; 6/8/08 = 157.8; 6/14/08 = 154.6; 6/21/08 = 155.0; 7/4/08 = 154.0

Older History:  3-1-2007 = 314; 7-5-2007 = 295; 7-17-2007 = 291; 
7-23-2007 = 284; 8-5-2007 = 276; 8-8-07 = 271; 8-10-07 = 270.0; 8-17-07 = 264; 8-24-07 = 262; 9-1-07 = 258; 9-1-07 = 252; 9-27-07 = 244.2; 10-02-07 = 241.6; 10-15-07 = 237.0; 10-28-07 = 230.8; 11-4-07 = 229.2; 11-18-07 = 219.0; 12/2/07 = 217; 12/16/07 = 212, 12/30/07 = 203.8; 
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One Year Retrospective...

Jul 04, 2008

I had my surgery almost one year ago.  However, the surgery was just the finale.  The process actually began with the one-week liquid diet, which I started on July 5th, 2007.  That day I weighed 295lbs (down from 314) and wore a size 26W.  Today, July 4th 2008, I weigh 154 lbs and wear a size 10.

What has changed?  Everything and nothing.

I don't really feel smaller in my day-to-day life.  There are small things, of course.  I'm not as concerned about taking up too much room if I sit next to someone in a public place.  Turnstiles for lines don't cause as much anxiety anymore.  I'm confident the seat belt is going to fit around me when I get in someone's car.  I'm not embarrassed to get on an airplane and don't feel sorry for the person sitting next to me.  Perhaps It's more about what's not there - loosing some of the emotional weight of being obese.

Some of my old emotional issues are still with me.  I'm still conscious of what I eat in public, but now it's because I can't eat a whole meal.  Waiters seem offended when there's still half a plate left!  "Yes, the food really was delicious, I just can't eat that much! Can I get a to-go box, please?"  Because of this I'm very conscious about what I order.  I've also given up on kid's meals - they're usually high in fat and carbs, and I can almost always find something on the menu that suits me better.

I don't think of myself as skinny; however, that's the word everyone uses now.  I was flat-out amazed when I bought a size small t-shirt (with long sleeves!)... and it actually fit.  Recent acquaintences have said, "I can't imagine you as anything but slender."  The body image issues are still there; they've just changed a bit.  Now I'm obsessed with loose skin and a bony neck.  And the 'girls' were the first to go - from a 44DD to a 34B.

What is life like now?

The biggest change for me has been clothes.  It was just before Christmas 2007 when I had to leave the Women's Department at the major mall stores.  I still swing through the Women's section at Walmart to get to the Ladies section.  The first time I wandered around feeling confused, not real sure where to go or even what size I needed!  There is a difference in a 14, 16, 18 and a 14W, 16W, 18W.  Now it doesn't matter - I wear 10 and M or S now.  Sometimes I wish I could go back to my little corner of the store... but I'm getting over that.

I usually wear control top panty hose to keep everything under the waistline in place, always wear long (or 3/4 length) sleeves, but I am trying to make an effort to not wear really baggy clothes, either.  Favorite look right now - 3/4 sleeve shrugs over a tank-top with jeans.  Dunno if it's flattering, but I like it.

What about being hungry?

Yes, I do get hungry!  It took a few months to re-learn what hunger really feels like - I honestly didn't know.  I would feel tired or fuzzy-headed, then realize I hadn't eaten in six hours.  I now need to eat every three hours or so.  However, I have learned if I'm wandering around feeling 'hungry' like I used to, that means I need to drink, not eat.

The other life change has been food choices.  Honestly, I think I eat more than I did before the surgery!  I certainly eat more often.  I certainly eat more chocolate!  The Ghirardelli chocolate squares with caramel or with peanut butter are my favorites.  I can have one square at a time, but usually eat two over about 30 minutes.  No more, though - dumping is my enemy and my best friend.

Dumping for me is a bloated, full feeling combined with being very tired, slightly disoriented, sometimes a headache, a pounding heart and (my favorite) a runny nose.  Dumping is caused by having too many carbs in too short a time.  It varies from person to person; for me, my limit is around 20 grams of carbohydrates per hour.  If I push too far (30g or more) it earns its name.  The body basically dumps the food through the digestive system as fast as possible, culminating in stomach cramps and an icky dump into the toilet.  For me, it doesn't matter about net carbs or sugar alcohols - a carb is a carb, and over 20g is bad news.

Interesting thing, I've learned to listen to my nose - when it starts sniffling it's time to stop eating.  There is also a strong aversion to food when I've pushed the limit too far, where even looking at more food makes me feel nauseous.

This limit means I have to make choices - one slice of raisin toast with cream cheese, or two eggs with sliced tomatoes and a slice of white toast.  No hash browns, no bagels, no sweet tea, no pancakes, no syrup, no rice, no french fries, no baked potatoes, etc etc...  but I can have a bite. I can have a bite of anything I want.  One bite.  Maybe two, but that's it.

Any regrets?

Not yet.  Let's see how I feel in another year.  It's not all fun, although it's certainly not been a horribly negative thing.  I've never thrown up, I've not been sick or hospitalized, my c-section was more painful.  For a while I was getting lightheaded when I would stand up.  I mentioned it to my primary doctor.  He told me, "I don't say this very often, but eat more fat and eat more salt!"  Fat to stop loosing as much weight and salt to increase water retention.  It's worked, by the way - I hardly get dizzy at all now that I try to pick upthe salt shaker more often.

That said, I'm now worried about loosing too much weight!  I don't look sick, but I don't feel like I look healthy.  Here's my ode to future plastic surgery:

o/~  Oh my rear hangs low and it wobbles to and fro,
o/~  My upper arms flap in the breeze and my thighs can touch my knees,
o/~  I've got really bony shoulders and no over-the-shoulder-boulders,
o/~  And my rear hangs low!

Hey, this was supposed to be a quick recap, not an in-depth retrospective.  Oh well.  This is all information I wish I'd found more about.  Lots of people write about the first month or two; then it becomes a way of life and we post-ops move on.  Thanks for reading, feel free to send messages with any questions, and ya'll Fellow or Future Loosers, take care!  - FalynnDFW

Thanksgiving Post

Nov 21, 2007

I've actually been thinking about this stuff for a few days now, so first of all, thanks for setting up an opportunity to speak up.  = )  Between grad school, WLS, and my job, it's been a rollercoaster year! 

I am thankful for my wonderful husband, who has really stepped up this last year.  He'd take one look at me when I staggered through the door after having been up for most of the last 36 hours and tell me, "Hon, go to bed."  He would stay up the extra hour to make sure my laundry made it into the dryer.  He's been so supportive of my education and my surgery.  I could not have done any of this without him.

I am thankful for my daughter, who makes me smile and reminds me to laugh and play.  She's the reason for so much of what I've pushed myself to do.  I decided in part to get my MBA in order to make our lives better and to set an example for her of what women can accomplish.

I am thankful for my in-laws, who have always been willing to help in any way we could ever ask for.  When my DH was in Africa for a month, they made the arrangements to get our daughter so I could keep going to class.  My mother- and sister-in-law took me to TGIFridays for my birthday the weekend before my surgery, where they both insisted on getting soup and milkshakes because I was on the liquid diet.  They've really been wonderful.

I'm thankful for my Mom, who has been staying nearby for the last couple months.  She's always willing to advise me about whatever is on my mind; she's stepped in to help watch my daughter when I needed to study or work.  It's been great being able to see her for dinner several nights a week; more than just once a year.  I'll miss her when she goes home, but I'm so glad she's here for the holidays this year.

I'm thankful for my Dad, who has been dealing with his wife's breast cancer but will still come out to watch my graduation ceremony.  He's provided moral support despite his own problems, and even drove five hours to spend the evening and morning when we went to Pittsburgh for a conference.  That meant a lot to me.

And, thanks to all of you.  I should cross into onederland this weekend, and I've found so much support from this board.  I've turned to the forum when I've been scared, read posts and advice when I was confused, asked questions when I didn't know where else to turn, and provided support whenever possible.  The people I've met have been great.  Thanks so much to everyone for posting here - it's made a difference in my life.

So now, I'm going to email this post to everyone mentioned here.  Thanks again, and have a wonderful Thanksgiving Holiday!!!

FalynnDFW

Inches aweigh

Nov 18, 2007

Won't be much longer now...  I'm now only 5 lbs away from 1-0-0!

Week stats:
Lbs:  219.0
BMI:  35.2
H2O:  47.3
BMR:  1763
MMass:  32%


Spring Creek Update

Oct 28, 2007

Couple weekends ago Spring Creek BBQ became the first place to refuse me a child's meal.  As mentioned, they did offer a sandwich plate, but I wasn't about to pay $7 when I couldn't eat the fries and bread.  When I got home and told my DH about the incident, he got upset.  So... he wrote them a polite email saying so.

He got a quick response from the district manager apologizing, explaining they should have offered ala carte pricing, that he's personally been to the store to explain the procedure, and he sent us a $30 gift card to use next time.  Wow... wasn't expecting any of that.  He just wanted them to know.

Unrelated note:  I have a new favorite restaurant.  Red Lobster!  1/2 lb snow crab legs = 25g protein, very low fat, no carbs.  It takes so much work to get into the darn thing it forces me to eat slow.  But they taste good and sit well in the pouch... nothing beats that, IMHO.  While the Red Lobster on Greenville Ave has always been good about kids meals, I don't have to order one - I just order them as a side with whomever else's meal.   = )


Sliding towards normalicy

Oct 14, 2007

I've lost almost 80 lbs since first seeing Dr. B in March.  Seems like so long ago.  Stats this week:

Lbs: 237.0
BMI: 37.1
H20: 45.9
BMR: 1842
MM:  31.4

More people have started noticing the weight loss.  A friend of my mother who has known me for 25 years said I look younger than I did in Spring.  Others notice, then get stuck on just how much.  Since the surgery in July I've lost 60lbs,  6 dress sizes (26 to 20), 3 underwear sizes (13 to 10).  I need to get my wedding ring resized - it flew across the room when I was doing laundry.  I need to get the girls checked - my bras aren't fitting very well.  I'm reaching the point of no return, which is when I recognize I will not wear the clothes stacking up in the back of my closet and take action to donate them.  None of them are good enough for the clothing exchange, though.  I bought cheap clothes.

I'm starting to adjust to my new body.  It's got curves again!  I'll take the lumps that come with it.  My arms are floppy and my thighs need control top pantyhose, but overall, I'm looking a lot better.  And I feel a lot better about that.

Went to Granbury over the weekend, and the Spring Creek BBQ was the first place to refuse me a child's meal.  They kindly offered me a sandwich plate, but I can't eat bread and fries. I declined and munched off my mom's plate.  Three slices of sausage, 1/2 cup of green beans, and a pickle: I was good.

Black Eyed Pea was a pleasant surprised.  Earlier, we had talked about foods we remember from our history, and it carried over to dinner.  Pork chops, black eyed peas, turnip greens. green beans, and vegetable soup were on the table:  I had 3 - 4 bites of good pork chop, all my black eyed peas, most of the turnip greens, and a couple green beans.  Not a bad meal.  In fact, we went back for lunch today.  = )

Rain, rain, go away!  I took an Ambien and won't play today...

Wow. Wow. Wow!

Sep 20, 2007

While my surgery has not been a secret, I haven't told many people outside of my family and work.  Well, I went to a campus event today and ran into a classmate I hadn't seen in a few months.  After a couple minutes of listening in a group, she came over to me and asked in a very quiet voice, "Have you lost weight?"

I nodded and said, "Yes."  She looked at me again and whispered, "Seriously, lots of weight."  I nodded again and said, "Yes"  She shook her head and said, "you've lost lots of weight in a really short period of time.  Did you diet or do some program?"

At this point we were pretty much alone, so I told her about having the gastric bypass in July.  She went on to talk about a friend of hers who had it and looks fabulous, and that I looked fabulous too.  She said she didn't notice it form my clothes (I'm still wearing my 24 suit when I should be in 20s), but from my face.

Anyway, that was such a positive moment.  It's the first time an 'outside' person who didn't already know recognized that something changed.  It felt good.  It was good.


Wake up, clear up

Sep 13, 2007

I decided to go to the Clinique counter to get some face cleaner.  It works!  Within a day most of the breakouts were under control.  We'll see if it keeps working, but I'm pretty happy with it.

It seems to be true - when you stop loosing pounds you start loosing inches.  I'd stalled out two weeks ago, lost 6 or so lbs, but stalled again this week.  But that's ok.  I went to Macys and, since I've lost the weight, I had no idea what size I wear.  So I pulled a 20, 22, and 24 to go try on.  I started with the 20s and was shocked when THEY FIT!  I know vanity sizing is in effect, so it's what I would consider to be a 22, but wow.  I've dropped from a 3X to a 1X.  I'm so happy, and now I can't wait to go shopping.

BTW - hello from Pittsburgh!

It's a day earlier than usual, but I took my weight this morning:

Lbs: 252
BMI:  38.5
H20:  44.8
BMR: 1910
MM: 31.0

Week of Clinique

Sep 08, 2007

So I've been having this acne problem that was annoying me, as it was worse than it ever was in high school.  I finally went to the Clinique counter at Dillards.  She cleaned my face and used some spot treatment.  I went ahead and purchased the stuff, plus some makeup I needed.  Well, by the Sunday morning the acne was already fading and by Monday it was pretty much gone.  I don't have any spots right now.  Woohoo!

I've also lost another 6 lbs.  I've started weighing Saturday morning instead of Friday night.  Specs this morning are:

Weight:  252.2
BMI:  38.6
H20: 44.8
BMR: 1908
Muscle Mass: 31.0

I don't know how much faith I put in the actual numbers, but it will be interesting to see how they change over time.  I'll admit, I periodically get on the scale during the week to see what I weight, but I only write down the resuts here each week.  = )

Off to Macy's Red Apple sale.  I need new clothes!!!


Up the sunny road

Aug 30, 2007

Things got a lot better this week.  = )  The blues finally lifted!  Good, considering I still don't sleep well at all.  I tossed and turned all night long last night.  I've still got acne.  THAT is getting annoying.

I've been having problems getting in protein.  I've got some leads on good protein bars and I will order some of the bullets.  For a while I was getting enough from the food, but since the last few rounds of feeling icky I just haven't been able to eat much.  I go back for a follow up on Thursday, so I'll address some of these issues with Dr. B's office.

Still stuck on the scale, although I won't officially weigh until tomorrow.  Unless something changes, this will be two weeks with less than two pounds lost.  This has happened before - last time I tried phentermine I got to about this weight and stalled.

One positive thing has been exercise.  I walked 30 minutes on Monday, then swam 30 minutes on Tuesday.  It's difficult to get anything in on Tuesdays and Wednesdays because of class, but I'm looking forward to walking some tomorrow.  I'll probably swim tomorrow night, too.


About Me
Rowlett, TX
Location
36.0
BMI
RNY
Surgery
07/13/2007
Surgery Date
Jul 06, 2007
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