Ran, quit and ran again

Aug 15, 2009

I was all running off at the mouth about running then I fell off the wagon. I decided at the last minute to run the Falmouth Road Race which is a great 7 mile race. I am glad that the weather was mild or I would have died. I felt more let down than proud of myself at the end as I wished I was in better shape and able to finish in a better time instead of worse.
I am generally feeling better. I am wearing a shirt today that fits and looks good but I can't believe I am wearing it and I keep thinking people are staring at me-not in a good way. I feel tire about feeling this way but I am not sure how to get over myself.
I am planning a weekend away with only some girlfriends and I am still not able to totally feel OK about it. I think I should save my little vacation time to spend with my kids and family although we have no plans or real money to do anything. I say I want to be in better shape but I feel like I have 10,000 things I need to do and spennding time running or going to the gym is time that I can be better spent.
How do people plan time for things they want to do and stick to it?? I have turned Walmart trips and completeing the laundry as things I enjoy. 
No manicures, No dinners out, No weekend trips.....How do I get back to this? 

0 Comments