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One month ago today I was re-born. I am so glad I did this. It is tough but I know the results will be well worth it. I am feeling great and almost normal at times. I went to work for the first time since surgery yesterday and I felt like I did before surgery. I was afraid that I might not be able to handle a full day but it went by as it did before the surgery so I am glad about that. I definitely get more walking in at work than I do at home. :) 

I just can't wait to really see the scale move. I know I shouldn't be caught up in the numbers but it helps give me positive feedback when the head hunger is kicking my butt. My clothes are really telling the tale of my journey. I wore two shirts and a pair of jeans this weekend that I hadn't been in in at least 2 years. It felt so good. Everyday my boyfriend tells me that I am melting away. Is it wrong to enjoy hearing that? LOL 

I must order protein today. I have not been doing the shakes. I think I get about 40-50 grams in a day. I also need to up my water. Yesterday I did pretty well and was only 1-2 cups shy of my 8 cups a day minimum.  I have been keeping up with my vitamins so that is a good thing.

is done!!! I am so happy. I got my blood work and all pre-op testing completed on Tuesday!. That barium was pretty bad. The first couple of gulps were ok but towards the end I wasn't sure if I could keep it down. I only had to drink one very large cup of the thick kind. The x-ray session lasted about 15 minutes if that. I see my surgeon for the last time before surgery on November 1st. I will be downtown all day. I have my appointment with the surgeon at 9, then meetings with the trainer, nutritionist, group session, and Bariatric Surgery orientation at the hospital. I am going to take the Metro down. I don't drive in the city. I am getting more and more nervous/ excited everyday. I just would like for this to be over so I can start this journey on the losing side. it still doesn't seem real that I might actually be a normal/healthy size.

I have less than 3 weeks left until I am under the knife. it feels kind of creepy because It seems like I am having my last visits with people. I am almost afraid that I won't make it through. I went to a wedding for an old co-worker and saw her and all my other ex-work friends there. I haven't talked to them in over a year and it was like I had just seen them yesterday. We still can laugh and joke about anything and I really enjoyed being there. I went to the wedding with a friend that I hadn't actually seen, though we talk a few times a week, in over 2 years. My best friend in the world, a Japanese woman, Sakiko is coming to the US for work but will come down to see me for the weekend before my surgery. I know that these things could all be just very coincidental but I can't help feeling like maybe this is God's chance of letting me spend one last time with them. I know, morbid right? Anyway I am starting to get nervous with no really fear just excitement and anticipation of the outcome. Is this weird? If anyone is reading this let me know what you think. Leave a comment below this post. :)