Tracy G.

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Since my band surgery in 2003 I have never been able to get below 200. I stay between 210 and 225. I had the sleeve surgery in 2010 after not being able to deal with the acid ref. issue.

A friend today said that they thought that me staying at this weight was a built in safety feature. If I didn't get to goal weight I could keep using my weight as an excuse for various things.  As I've reflected today I think they were right. Now....what to do about it?????

I was reading blogs of different people on obesityhelp.com and I read one about a guy who lost tons of weight and started running - 5K, 1/2 marathons, marathons, and even an Iron man. The more I thought about the more I wanted to try. I am still over 200 pounds. Running isn't easy but I am trying.  Some friends on Facebook gave me a website to help me get started. I wanted to share that with anyone here who would be interested. They have a link on Facebook where people share ideas about what is working and what is not, what hurts and what shouldn't. The website is www.coolrunning.com The program is called Couch-to-5K (C25K) It is a pretty good workout. I started yesterday. My body isn't giving me any love today but I feel good about myself. If you are interested in working through the program and want a support buddy let me know. Also if anyone lives in Maryland and wants to do a 5K in Fredrick, Md on Oct 16 for St. Jude's let me know! I feel good having a goal. Have you set any new goals lately?

I have had a good few weeks. I've managed to be in the gym 5 days a week each and every week since June 16. Time and energy have always been my biggest problems. By the end of the work day and after getting my son to bed I don't have the energy to do anything besides going on to bed. With the summer schedule I've been able to do the gym in the am after I drop my son off to the babysitters house then on to work. I like summer hours.

I have signed up to do a 5K in October. My hopes is that I can actually run it not walk it. I'm doing good in the gym. At first I was very upset with myself for how out of shape I actually was but after talking to several friends who told me I can only get better I have a much better state of mind.

I am still looking for a good workout buddy. My husband is in good shape. He encourages me but he doesn't have the same issues that I have. I had a couple of friends going with me to the gym but they keep finding excuses to not go. I keep asking them but they always have a reason not to go. It would be nice to have a friend who is motivated to see it through. I will keep looking.

I teach middle school. The last few weeks have been crazy. Because of all the snow we got this year in MD, today was the last day for students. I have another day this week and one next week. I then work 9 days in July and another 5 in Aug before school starts. Who says teacher's have summers off?

I have been working on a plan for myself. I find that I give up a lot of my energy for others. My 2 year old takes a lot of time. I don't mind that because it is good times. But the people at work and friends take up a lot of time as well. I have been trying to find friends who support me and my need for a healthier life style. Most of my friends eat and drink...a lot.

Thursday morning I am joining a new gym with friends who have the same issues I have with weight, eating, and little or no time. I am hoping that we can motivate each other. Today I also signed up to do a 5K in October. I want to do a 1/2 Marathon next summer. I would love to have a partner to train with but none of my friends are that motivated or involved (not sure how to word it). I think it would be interesting to have several friends from all over to sign up for the same race and meet up the weekend of the race next summer. Anyone interested in joining me?
 

Sometimes I feel as if life is out to get me. I was on my way to attend a local support group a few weeks ago and I had a car accident. I am just now getting to where I can get back out and exercise. Sometimes I just feel like I can't win. I know this will pass and I will try to attend next time. This makes twice I've not shown for meetings. Maybe I am setting myself up to not be successful - always having excuses.

The day to day life stuff is starting to get in the way of doing what is best for me. I am pleased to say I am down 50 pounds since Jan 12. I know it could be better if I could work out regularly. I am making that my goal this next month - 4 to 5 days of good work outs, not just strolling around with my 2 year old.

I had my revision surgery on the 12th. The surgery was great. I had no problems the first couple days. The fourth day out I started having issues with gas build up. I couldn't walk enough to get rid of the gas. I felt like I was gonna explode. Because I felt so full of the gas I didn't drink like I should. Last weekend I was put back into the hospital for dehydration. The extra fluids seemed to really help.

As of today I am doing really good. It is a struggle to get all my protein in and my fluids. I am having a hard time with the taste of the shakes but I am working on it.

I am down 17 pounds. I'm not sure if that is on track or not but at least it is down.

I have my date for suregery. It is this Tuesday, the 12th. I have very mixed feelings. I'm excited and scared as well. When I had my band surgery in 2003 I was single and much younger. Today I'm married and have a 18 months old. I worry about consequences much more. Please say a prayer for me and wish me luck!

I can't believe how hard it has been to get my insurance to pay for everything. All the documentation is crazy. When I had the band surgery it took 30 days from my first meeting until I had surgery. Ofcourse that was 6 years ago. I guess things have changed.

I finally got finished with everything that is needed for surgery and now I'm waiting for a date. We had a date set for Dec. 15 but my insurance wanted something else so we had to put the surgery off. The longer it goes the more scared I become. The last time it was only me. Now have a 17 mo old son and I keep worrying about if something happens to me during surgery what will he do with no mommy? On the flip side if I keep going at this rate I'm gonna die of something else. Sometimes I feel as if I'm drowning in "what if" and the never ending list of stuff from work and life. I think I need a vacation :-)

I changed doctors when I moved from KY to MD. My new doctor informed me this week that my band has slipped and I need to have it removed. She has suggested I have the sleeve done in 6 months. I don't know anything about it so I guess it is time to start the research.

I am joining a support group here in MD with the hopes of having some outside help to get/keep me motivated.