Where am I?

Apr 08, 2009

I've been missing from the OH scene for a while, just checking in occasionally.  Today, I might as well give an update - even if there is little to report.

I'm still a food addict.  I think about food a lot - maybe not as much as before surgery, but still more than what I would consider normal.  I feel like I'm constantly talking myself down from eating.

I still have issues with portion sizes.  At GWL in Niagara, we went to a delish buffet.  Normally, I do OK, but this had scrumptious food!  I over did the portion sized - not to mention the sugar.  I was in horrible pain.  While the rest of my family went about having fun, I tried walking off the pain to no avail.  I had to go back to my room and 'get rid of' the over consumption.  I was able to rejoin my family, but I wasn't feeling that great.

I still am addicted to sweets.  I think eliminating chocolates and such would only cause it to be more appealing, but certainly I need to learn better control.  While in Niagara Falls, we visited a candy shop.  I got a little bag of chocolates and consumed them over the next day.  I paid for it and felt terribly sick while we were out for a drive. 

I'm stuck!  At this point, I don't believe the scale will ever move.  I know it's my fault - not eating like I should.  I'm maintaining, which is OK, but I would still like to lose another 30 pounds.

So where does this all leave me... stuck in the middle.  I want to lose more, but I still want to eat more 'freely' than I need to.  It's time to make a decision about how important losing is to me - or if maintaining at 210 will be OK.  Really, I need to get signed up with a new therapist and work through this.  (My last one has retired.) 

I've got to go do a Wii Fit body test.  I'm afraid to get weighed after vacation, but we all need to get back to reality soon or later.  Wish me luck!

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