Heidibobeidi
Week 3 update
Jul 24, 2014
Well, it's not all bad, but it could be better. I'm still dealing with that abdominal muscle strain that happened my first week home, and some days I just want to be anywhere but inside my body because it's so uncomfortable. This morning I could only sleep for about 5 hours before waking up with intense muscle spasms, and have only been able to nap for 30 mins at a time for the same reason. Last night I had an abscess on one of my healing incisions, so that was friggin disgusting, and worrying. I called the nurses today and they told me that they happen, and it's just your body's way of trying to push out the sutures because they're foreign objects in your body. I also seem to be at a stall, or at least approaching one, as I've only lost 3 lbs this week. So, right now post op life isn't treating me the best. 
On the plus side, overall I've lost 49 lbs. It's funny because it doesn't seem like much to me, and I'm still at 305, so I'm not yet celebrating the loss. This weekend I get to move up to soft foods, and that's exciting. I miss bread and cheese and fruit, so that'll be amazing, pending the ultimate authority's decision on the matter. By which I mean my pouch, of course. It'll be nice to be able to start eating dinner with my family again, even if it is minuscule portions of only some of the foods they're having. It'll go a long way for morale.
So, overall, week 3, and reality is starting to set in that this journey won't be all sunshine and roses, and that my body is still my body, and still just as prone to injury as it was before, if not more so. This is my struggle, and no other person can go through it for me, even if they'd be willing to. I've learned to respect my limits, and that 'powering through' isn't always the best route to take, especially when healing. I feel myself wanting to get out there and do so much though, especially in summer, and it does suck that I'm stuck inside being in all this pain and discomfort at this time. Oh well. If all goes well, next summer will be my summer to do all the things I've always wanted to do. Just gotta keep my eyes on that prize. 
