Back to work

Nov 11, 2007

Well I go back to work again tonight, so I know that the weight will be slower coming off this week than last. I lost 6 lbs total last week and that's a great deal. It's just so odd how my body reacts to when I change the time tables around and work at night and sleep during the day. However, I'm doing well, and the little oddities aren't making a huge impact on my weight loss and that's what counts. 

I probably wont get to post much this week, as my time is cut back drasticly on my weeks to work. Here are my stats, we'll see where I am at the end of my 7 day run.

Current Weight: 220 lbs
Total Lost: 86 lbs
Goal Weight: 155 lbs


I hope everyone has a great Monday and a great week. I'll be turning 35 on the 14th, so I'll celebrate a little this week. Maybe we'll order out Chinese at work! That'll be a good treat!

{{{Hugs}}}

Holley

Holy 3 pounds Batman!

Nov 08, 2007

I lost 3 pounds in 2 days. I guess my slow down time picked back up a bit there eh? 

I was SHOCKED to say the least when I got on the scales this morning. 

Current: 223 lbs
Total Lost: 83 lbs
Goal Weight: 155 lbs


I've been blogging a lot this week too! I really don't have anymore to say at this point, it's 10 past midnight now and I'm still grinning about the scales at 7am this morning.... LOL.

Since I'm a bit giddy when I'm sleep deprived I think I'll save you all the torture of any long winded gabbing tonight. I hope everyone is happy and healthy tonight, and in bed already too!

**Smooches** Love you guys!!

Holley

3 Month Post-Op Check Up

Nov 07, 2007

Yesterday I went back in for my 3 month check up with my surgeon's office and everything looks great! They are very pleased with my progress and he believes that I may just meet my goal by 1 year post op, which was music to my ears!

I also hit another big milestone yesterday. When I got on the scales I hit the 80 pound mark. I can't say woooooHooooo enough! It seemed like I was going to stay at 79 lbs forever (even though it had only been a few days) before reaching the big 8-0, and here I am. It is still so surreal sometimes when I think about the amount of weight that I have lost in such a short amount of time.  

A reminder that the weight loss that I post here about is since about 3 weeks prior to surgery when I started cutting back drasticly on the amount of food I was taking in and then for the final 2 weeks prior to surgery I was on a liquid fast. I lost about 22 lbs prior to surgery and have lost the rest since surgery. 

Here are my current stats:

Highest Weight: 306
Current Weight: 226 lbs
Total Lost: 80 lbs
Goal Weight: 155


I am so happy with the progression of my weight loss and the life changing habbits I am making along the way.  I have still have not had anything sweet since my 2 week liquid fast before surgery and I've found that really sweet deserts do not smell good to me any more. I'm not sure if this is just a mental thing I've built up for my defense against sweets or if this is a natural progression of my body and it's needs. 

For instance, I worked over halloween and of course everybody and their brother brought in candy and home made treats all week long and dumped them in the communal treat bowl. I found myself having to move the bowl away from my scent range because everytime someone opened up something fragrent like a hershy bar it would nearly make me neuseaous! Same thing with a huge flat of brownies someone made. It was like they were 'sickly' sweet smelling to me and very overwhelming. Now this is something I  have never experienced before. I'm certainly not complaining, but it's just odd. 

I have always been attracked to foods by how they smell as much as anything so for me to not be able to stand the smell of a pan of brownies it just sounds foriegn to me. I feel like I'm incredibly blessed to have this happen to me at the same time though. The closest I've felt to being tempted is by candy corn, and only because I couldn't smell them in their little packages.  I was able to resist them without any problems though. 

A part of me wonders if there will come a time when I crave those foods again. Or will I live and be contented with not eating sweets anymore? I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get there. In the mean time I'm glad to have my scentanator working with me on this journey!

Sending you all lots of love and warmth on this cool November day. 

{{Hugs}}

Holley

Having a Slow Week, but THAT'S OK! :)

Nov 03, 2007

Well I've only lost 1 more pound in the last 5 days, but that's ok. I haven't been able to exercise all week because Last weekend I installed a room of  laminate floors and strained the muscles in my legs pretty badly. I walked funny for 4 days and felt like I had rocks in the backs of my thighs so it was painful every time I sat down. My 1 hr commute to work was painful the first 3 nights of my work week this week.  Thank goodness the 'rock' feeling I had in the backs of my thighs has eased up a lot over the last couple of days, but I still don't have all my flexibility back. I'm hoping to be able to get back into my exercise routine Sunday afternoon when I wake up. I know that helps my weight loss a lot. 

My stats today:

Current Weight: 227 lbs
Total Lost: 79 lbs
Goal Weight: 155 lbs


I had a short term goal of 225 by Nov. 1st, however with not being able to exercise like I wanted to, that didn't happen. I'm not upset about that though as I have surpassed Dr. Chapmans expectations at this point post op, so I'm pleased to say the least. 

More and more people are getting brave enough to ask me about my weight loss. Of course all those close to me at work and home knew about my surgery but working in a big hospital you see people all the time who you never really get to know, so those work acquaintances are now asking "so what are you doing to get so slim and trim?" I just smile and tell them about my surgery.  Most of the people I know are so weird about others finding out about them having WLS. That to me is counter productive. 

I, quite frankly, am proud to say that I had gastric bypass surgery. To me, there was no other option and I think that by making that decision to better my life was an awesome choice and one I would never want to be ashamed of. For instance, one of the ladies that I work with from another shift had WLS 2 years ago and flat out lied about how she was losing weight. Told people that she was going to LA Weight Loss for crying out loud! Why have the surgery if you aren't comfortable with it? It makes no sense to me, but I'm not in their shoes so I'm not judging anyone else. It's just a foreign concept to me all around. I guess everyone isn't as open about things as I am? 

At any rate. I just wanted to post an update. I'm here at work and having to work an extra hour that I'm not getting paid for due to the time falling back an hour tonight. YAY! So I'm taking advantage of that extra hour to catch up on all my friends here and blog some. 

I hope everyone had a wonderful Halloween!  

{{{WarmHugs}}}

Holley
 

3 Months Out

Oct 29, 2007

Well Here I am, last Friday was my 3 months anniversary since surgery! I can't believe it's been 3 months and in some respects it seems like a lifetime ago. 

Today I weigh 228 lbs.  8 more pounds and I'll weigh less than I ever have in my adult life.  I *think* the smallest I ever was the one time I lost a lot of weight 6 years ago was 221, but I can't be for sure as the numbers are fuzzy from then. However I know I'm in the ball park as I'm wearing all my clothes from back then! YAY!! 

I have a male friend, Keith, whom I've known for 5.5 years. Since the time when I was at my smallest and beginning to gain a little back slowly.  I haven't seen him since 3 weeks post-op and then last week I went to see him and he was so surprised and happy for me. He said he honestly never realized how much weight  I had gained since we first met. That comes from a fellow fat person, I think we share our denial with our fat friends too! But it was so sweet to hear that he didn't really pay attention to my every growing body over the years. He's an awesome friend.

I actually wore some clothes that I wore 6 years ago and they fit so well, not too tight at all. It is such a great feeling to be able to get back into those clothes I've been holding in my closet for so long. My closet is thankful to be a little lighter as well!!

Well here are my stats....

Current Weight: 228 lbs
Total Amount Lost: 78 lbs
Goal Weight: 155 lbs

I do have a short term goal that I had set of being at 225 by November 1st. I don't know if I'll lose another 3 lbs by Thursday but I've already surpassed my Dr's expectations at the 3 month out point. Speaking of my Dr. I go back to see Dr. Chapman on November 6th and I can't wait! I'm excited to see the 'official' scale reading and hear his thoughts on my progress. I think I'm going to dress up a little for my appointment and I hope it's cold out so I can wear my sexy red sweater!  No I don't have a crush on my Dr. but it feels sooooo good to feel sexy again. And it just feels good to LIVE again. 

As I sit here and write all this, I can't help but wonder about the future. If I feel this good  now, how will I feel at 1 year post-op? I just can't even imagine! 

As I'm coming up on some big personal milestones (getting below my lowest weight etc...) I can't help but hear that neggative voice that sometimes likes to creep in on me that wonders if this is it, I never got any smaller before, what makes me think I'll get smaller this time? Isn't it just CRAP how those neggative insecurities slip in on your from time to time? It tends to piss me off once I realize what's going on inside my own thoughts sometimes. 

That being said, another personal goal for myself is to continue to achieve self-assuredness and continue to build on my self-esteem. I want to turn those neggative thoughts around and make them possitive thoughts. I don't wont to wonder when I'm going to fail, but I do want to work on ways to help me succeed. Nothing but goodness and possitivity, that's what I want in my future!

{{{WarmHugs}}}

Holley

The Big 70!

Oct 15, 2007

Well I hit the big 70 lb mark this weekend and against my better judgment I got back on the scales this morning to realize that I'm another pound down as well. That brings my total to 71 lbs gone!

Current: 235 lbs
Total Lost: 71 lbs
Goal Weight: 155 lbs

I've been having some allergy issues with the weather change and both Saturday and Sunday I woke up with a severe sinus headache. One of those hurts to blink aches. So I rolled back over and went back to sleep. I didn't do my formal exercises either day, however I was very active both afternoons and evenings so I probably would not have been able to enjoy my evenings had I exercised those mornings. My heel spurs would have revolted I think because Saturday night was I standing at a concernt in one place for 3 hours straight, and we walked around the amusment area as well so i was on my feet for like 5 hours straight. A 2 mile walk that morning would have done me in I think. My poor heels can only take so much.

I go back to work tonight so I slept in again this morning because I know that I would exercise this afternoon before having my shower before work, to 'get my day started' for my chang in routine this week. So all day, well since 10 am when I got up, I've just been sitting around in my robe, chilling out. This afternoon I'll take my vitamins, go walking (or workout in the house if it's too hot) then shower and fix some dinner. Back to work weeks are always weird for me. I need to have this down time other wise I'm dead all night long at work. 

I went and bought a pair of workout pants from walmart the other day. I chose the draw string ones over the regular sweat pants because I knew with the draw string ones I'd be able to wear them all winter long on my early morning walks. Well... low and behold, the next morning I get up and put them on only to discover that the draw strings are a fake!! What Morron adds a fake drawstring to a pair of pants???? For decoration??? OMG!! I was so pissed. The holes are there, I can add in a draw string if I want to, but the strings they have are sewn in right at the front. What a hunk of junk!! 

So I should return them, right? Well after putting them on I was going around the house complaining to anyone who would listen and I got bleach on them!! They're black crushed velour things... lightweight but that furry feel to them. The bleach spots show up RED. LOL I'm screwed. So I have a pair of pants that I'll wear for a month or so before they fall down. I'm very dissapointed but I've learned my lesson! I'll always check to make sure the draw string is REAL before purchasing. *shakes head*

Happy Monday everyone! 

Holley


Movin right along

Oct 11, 2007

Forgive me, it's been a while since my last confession.... er, I mean BLOG!

I'll get the numbers out of the way to start with today.

Current weight: 238 lbs
Total Lost: 68 lbs
Goal Weight: 155 lbs


As you can see I've lost 8 lbs since my last post here. I went for about a week and a half without losing anything though. I'm learning that anytime I change my routine my weight loss shuts down. Which doesn't sound good, but just knowing that this is how MY body works makes me feel A-Ok. 

What prompted this most recent weight-loss-shut-down? First I changed my workout on my week to work. As I've stated before, just changing my sleeping patterns on my week to work from night time sleeping to daytime, really screws with my body's ability to function properly. Usually by the end of the week though everything is running smoothly. Well, on top of my work week I did a different workout which worked different muscles than what I was used to. This is good because I believe our bodies need that change up, however it SUCKS when the scales don't move for many days! 

At the end of my change-up week, I also went out of town to visit with friends for 3 nights so yet more routine changes. A lot of time in the car, meals not eaten at normal times. Snacking on nuts to help compensate for lack of protein intake, all that adds up to my body being very confused I guess. 

When I returned home from my out of town trip, I hadn't weighed in over a week, so when I did weigh I only weighed in with one pound lost in nearly 2 weeks. That was very disappointing. HOWEVER the very next day, after being back home and into my normal routine again, I lost another pound and a half wich brings me up to the current weight I've already posted. 

I think it's interesting how the human body works sometimes. It sure does defy our own logic a lot! For instance I find that during those times when I'm experiencing that temporary plateau, that's when people seem to notice that I've suddenly lost more weight. It's like my body is shifting or something during that time, I'm not really sure how to describe it because I also continue to notice the clothes getting loser when I plateau like that. I guess it's just my body adjusting, I just need to stop analyzing it! HA! Yup, I'm definitely a woman, we analyze everything!

As you may have noticed I posted more pictures last week.  They are my 2 month post-op pictures and the first ones that I can really tell a huge difference. Now it's very obvious, even in pictures and that feels good.

I've even updated my profile information so my BMI is right, now. WOW, big change from 46 ( I think it was) to 37!  I'll have to update that more often as the weight loss progresses. 

I mentioned being out of town visiting with friends for a few days. I have to say that was a much needed excursion. It was a girls weekend, 3 momies and 4 little girls all great friends.  We did things like talk to the wee hours, the girls had fasion shows with their bears, we went into Wilmington to shop and have dinner at a wonderful Japanese Steak House where we met one of the other Mommy's aunt who was a HOOT to spend time with. We took lots of pictures to preserve the memories and we were sad to see the time together end. We are definitely looking forward to the next get together!

I finally got a decent internet connection so I hope to be on here more often. Maybe I'll even get a chance to post on the message boards again! My crappy dialup has kept me down for too long, now I have a really good sattelite connection that's broadening my horizons!

I hope everyone is doing well and staying possitive. I'd love to hear from you feel free to post a comment or send me a message. 

{{{WarmHugs}}}

~Holley~


The BIG 60!

Sep 25, 2007

I hit the big 60 lb mark this morning! I still can't believe it! I've lost 60 lbs since July!?!? WOW is all I can say. People are seeing me and doing a double take these days. Especially those I haven't seen in a few weeks. My grandmother who I hadn't seen in 2 weeks saw me today and I was having a good hair day and everything, she goes, "Oh my goodness Holley, you look amazing!" I think I may have blushed! 

Onward....

Current: 246
Total Lost: 60
Goal: 150

I even lost 3 pounds last week on my week to work!! WoooHoooo! AND the swelling in my legs was not as bad last week, so I am really liking this gradual change in my body.

I'll take some new pictures this week. I want to put on that bathing suit and see how much bigger it is now. LOL.

Hope everyone is doing well and keeping a possitive attitude. Even when the slowdowns hit, just remember you are getting smaller!

Holley

Getting back in the swing?

Sep 18, 2007

It's so weird, I posted that blog last week about my slow down, then I went on to lose 5 more pounds that week. Maybe I subconciously picked up the pace and was more active? Who knows, but whatever the reason I'm happy to report that I had a very successful week last week. I've even lost another pound this week already!

Current 249
Total Lost: 57
Goal: 150

At any rate, last week was a great boost to my esteem and I received a lot of compliments and possitive comments so that made me feel even better. 

This is short and sweet as I'm at work, but I wanted to update and let you all know how great last week turned out after all. Love you ladies!

Holley

The SLOOOOOWWWWW DOWWWNNNNN

Sep 12, 2007

The name says it all. The weight is definitely coming off a lot slower now.  I am however pleased to report that last week while I was working and retaining tons of water AND on my period I lost a pound. The previous week that I worked I didn't lose one ounce the entire week, so seeing that pound leave last week was a good thing indeed!

At nearly 7 weeks post op:

Current: 255 lbs
Total Lost: 51 lbs
Goal to lose: 150 lbs


I'm exercising still, and this week I've bumped up the weights and the distance of my walks and I can feel the burn in my legs and arms this morning. When I went walking this morning I walked the same 2 miles, I just did it with less intensity. I still used my hand weights, I just focused more on stretching my legs rather than hard core pumping the legs like I've been doing. I could tell that my legs needed an easy workout this morning.

I'm definitly loving this cooler weather for my walking. This morning I had a cool breeze on my way back to the house and that felt really good on my sweaty face. I am however going to have to purchase some decent workout clothing. The things I have are getting too baggy and lose clothing gets in the way when your working hard. I think for now I just need a couple of pairs of shorts that fit better and don't bunch up around my thighs while I walk.  I have plenty of t-shirts that will do just fine for now. I also like having pockets in my shorts for my MP3 player and my cell phone.  Most workout shorts don't have pockets at all. Any recomendations ladies?

Our homeschooling is back in full swing again, we've been going for a few weeks now, but it seems like a good rhythm is forming now and that always makes things easier. I've become a little more structured this year, as Courtney seems to need more structure as she gets older. So far it's working quite well. In fact I think things are running very smoothly. :)

That's about it for me this time around. I hope everyone is doing well and staying possitive. Sending you all my love and warm thoughts this morning. Take good care!

Holley

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07/26/2007
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