Eating or Not Eating

Apr 11, 2010

I have been thinking a lot about what goes in my mouth.  Hmm...can't imagine why?  Maybe because I have had surgery, and my stomach is now non-existent, but also because I know I HAVE to have protein.  My first bite at any meal is protein.  I am sipping on my Special K Pink Lemonade protein water right now.  I think I am a good representative of what a wls patient is. 
That being said, I refuse to say "I can never have___ again."  People say all the time "What can you eat?"  Well, I CAN eat anything, the question they should ask is, what do you eat?  I do eat tuna, chili, grilled chicken, cheese, etc.  But most nights I have fat free chocolate pudding with a scoop of fat free cool whip on top.  It is my decadent dessert, and a fine trade for the 4 scoops of ice cream I used to eat.  Today I had THREE bites of wacky cake...THREE!  But that is better than the FOUR pieces I would have had before surgery.  I can't live  my life restricted.  I can't NEVER have sweets again.  But I CAN have them in moderation, and I truly believe this surgery has helped me discover what moderation means! 
For me it means one bite, not twenty, of cake.  Since I had those bites of cake, I didn't have any sherbet, no loss there.  Today for dinner I ordered a bacon ranch salad from McDonald's, I ate the chicken, with the cheese, bacon, and LITTLE dressing.  Before I would have ordered a large two cheese burger combo, and still had ice cream later! 
These choices might not seem like much to the general population, but for me, they are life changing, and every time I make a good choice I surprise myself a little. 
Every morning I tell my 5 year old to make good choices, and that has now become my own mantra, so in the morning when I tell him to make good choices, he says back, "ok Mommy, you too!" 

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