jennirjohn
10 days
Dec 22, 2008
It's 10 days until I have my psych eval and then hopefully soon after that I will find out my surgery date. I'm hoping for March or April.I can't believe that this is really happening. After many years of thinking about it in the back of my mind I finally made the decision to just go for it. I know someone who had the VSG and I talked to her about her experience. She has done so well. I'll be having the RNY but it's still good to know someone personally who has been through this whole experience.
At the end of August I decided to email my pcp to find out more about wls through Kaiser. She said I had to make an appointment. So I went; she said I was eligible and then referred me to the program. Two months later I was at orientation finding out more about what all of this meant. I brought my mom with me so someone else could hear what I was hearing and help me decide. It just kind of progressed from there. I decided that if I was really approved for the surgery then I was going to do it. I wasn't going to give myself an out. I knew I was scared and a little weary of possibly dying on the operating table or afterwards from complications.
I had my consultation with the nutritionist, surgeon and case coordinator December 12. Dr. Dennen explained a little more about the surgery and said that basically what I was doing was putting the risk upfront. The fact of the matter is that being overweight is going to kill me, maybe not now, maybe not 20 years from now, but eventually. That's a harsh reality to face. I don't like to think about that. All my life I have fought the stereotypes. I have tried to not be what I am. Now I am accepting the fact that yes, I am overweight. I am fat. I am obese. And I will deal with that for the rest of my life. There's no sense in hiding from it. It's there. It's visible. It's what is.
But, now I am ready for things to change. I am ready to be healthy. I am ready to make healthy choices that I can one day instill in the lives of my children (when I have them.) Hopefully less than half my life has been lived already. I want the other more than 25 years to be spent enjoying life, loving who I am and even where I came from, not regretting the past but using it to succeed in the future.
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About Me
Fremont, CA
Location
38.9
BMI
Surgery
04/06/2009
Surgery Date
Aug 19, 2008
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