jennirjohn
Hope
Dec 24, 2008
Hope. I finally have hope. All my life I have been overweight. I was teased mercilessly all growing up, even by my own family members. I let the things they said affect me. I let it dictate who I was. I saw no way that my life could ever be any different and so eventually I stopped trying.I hated who I was. I hated that I was fat. I hated that I was going to end up just like my dad and grandma. But at the same time, I didn't want to be different than them. I loved my dad and wanted to be just like him. He didn't do anything about his weight, so why should I?
I had never really thought about any of this until yesterday. I talked to my mom and a lot of things finally became clear for me. Before there was no hope. I knew that there was no way that I was going to ever lose all the weight I wanted and needed to on my own. I had tried dieting and exercise before, but it didn't last. I would give up because I wouldn't see results. What was the point of spending all my time, energy, and money on something that was fruitless?
But now, now there is hope. I can see the end. I know that with the help of this "tool" I can achieve my goals. It has given me the motivation that I need to keep losing weight now. And it will be the motivation I need after surgery to keep going. Finally, I know that I can be healthier; I won't have to be just the fat girl anymore.
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About Me
Fremont, CA
Location
38.9
BMI
Surgery
04/06/2009
Surgery Date
Aug 19, 2008
Member Since
