jmshadowdancer
I am 32 years old today (8/15/2015).
I weighed 406 pounds at my highest weight and was on the cusp of major health problems. I had been diagnosed with sleep apnea, pre-diabetes, and high blood pressure was starting to rear its ugly head.
On top of that, I had no life, going to work was it for me... and then I'd have dinner and go to sleep. I was too tired to keep up with my son. I was too tired to go anywhere. I'd be sitting on the couch and pass out while watching television. I hid myself from the world in whatever clothing fit me and didn't go out much.
My doctor gave it to me straight. If I kept going the way that I was going, I was going to die by 30.
I researched the idea of weight loss surgery for two years and then came to land in the hands of Dr. Dakin. With his staff I started my path to VSG, which was finally done on November 22, 2010.
I had buyer's remorse for a while, because this is no easy way out. I had to go to hell and back. I had to relearn how to eat and drink and trash everything that I knew.
But my life is different now. I no longer have sleep apnea, or pre-diabetes. My blood pressure is normal and I have lost a lot of weight. Hell, I got pregnant with my daughter and had her in January 2013. I wouldn't be able to do half of what I do, or keep up with my energetic kids, if I was still 406.
I'm at a point now, where if I had started out "skinny fat" as I like to call it, I'd be done with my journey. I'd be prancing around happily in tiny clothes and probably working towards running a marathon and working thin person miracles.
But, alas... I started at super obese and am at 315 after having my daughter. I should have done better research, I was anemic during pregnancy and had to start taking an iron supplement. I have issues with my teeth right now.
In a sense.. I kind of fell off the wagon a bit, overwhelmed by preggie brain. So, I'm here, getting my footing again. I am still on my path. This is far from over.
I know I have to work harder than most because I started so high. I am also learning that I used food to drown my emotions, and am learning to feel them again.
I am learning to live again.
I don't know what is to come, and I continue to remain skeptical.
But I am also happy that I have a second chance at my life.
I know it sounds redundant but I say it again.
My journey continues.
