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                  Clear liquids all Day today

I'm truly embracing these last few days before WLS


My family and friends were over yesterday 

            for           "Memorial Day"

It felt really good to see everyone!!!!!! I noticed that

they were all looking at me in a different way.....

and watching what I was eating and not eating,

and my sister-in-law said"Are you nervous about

Tuesday  ?????? If I were you I would eat everything

in sight before you go in for WLS" 

and I looked at her 

                                   and said
 
"I can hardly eat the food that sits in my plate"


My friend joins the conversation and came to

my rescue by saying:


"She's made a decision and she's going to stick with it 

Her mind is so motivated and passionate about this

that nobody is going to get in her way ... she's like a

Freight train moving Quickly and determined to let this 

happen-------Watch out World"

I was amazed --- BBQ ended up being a mini Support

meeting --Opinions, Criticism, Sarcasm, Negative,

Positive and just another reminder of "I'm going to

change who I am and the world remains the same"

It wasn't a bad day it was an insightful day and I

learned of everyone's concerns for me and support of

my decision in WLS.




I couldn't sleep through the night--- My mind is going

1 Zillion Mph..... Worried about my children and

husband ---Hoping that the house will remain in

somewhat of a good order.. Don't want my son crying

for me or my daughter worried about me.....I guess

that's what happens as time gets near.


Tomorrow morning I will be Getting up around 5Am and

heading toward my destination to a new me ....

                                                                                         
                                                                !!!!!Happy Memorial Day!!!!


I'm having family and friends over for BBQ and am going to make

the best out of my last weekend before I completely start my life

over again................ On May 26 2009------>>      I'm getting so

anxious about my surgery two more days and I'm going in.

I must admit I'm feeling very emotional .  I've been very moody

lately.... I've been imagining how I'm going to feel and wondering am

I going to change my personality too??? I hope not? but then again... 


I can't be the same person I am today? "I want to improve my life"

I need to rediscover myself and change my habits and move

forward without looking back....

I want to feel Healthy,Energized , Confident, and Strong Enough  to

keep going and make all my dreams a reality...

                                        
Well two more days and I'm going in.....Sounds like I'm

about to give birth (doesn't it) The truth is I'm being

reborn and given a second chance at getting things right

to improve my overall health and gain back the life I was

meant to have. From this day forward I will look ahead

and not look back and blame everyone for how big I am

and take responsibility for my actions (or lack there of)

and use the Bariatric Surgery as a tool to continue my

journey one step at a time and no that there's no turning back.
So here's to a new me.....