Jessica S.

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Hi just a little update, I am at 150 lbs on most days, some days at 151 lbs, weight isn't really coming off anymore but hey what can you do, I have been very lucky and I don't have to have any skin removal, I will need a boob refill, my breast arent saggy but they are empty lol. Anyhow I had been going to the gym and got into a rut for the last month I have not been. I have been trying to get pregnant but no luck yet, guess not everyone is SUPER fertile after surgery. Anyhow food wise I am good, I have had a few minor dumping but nothing major. Today I go for a CT scan of my tummy to see if I have a hernia, I do get random pain in the middle of the night but not very often, guess they just dont want to take any chance. I will keep you guys up to date.

Still stuck, I have lost 1 lbs in the last month, if that some days it is at 157 and other days 158 lbs, sucks to stall and I am so close to loosing 100 lbs but nope my scale does not want to move at all. I have to admit it is completely my fault, I don't think I eat enough calories and I am eating too many bad ones too. I have made the mistake of having some candy, last night my stomach hurt after so that made me happy, hopefully I am going to be intolerant to it and help me stay away from it. I have started back on protein shakes and slowly trying to work in more things that are better for me compared to these snacks that I am having. This tool doesn't resolve your sugar addiction, time to go see the behaviour therapist and nurse for some support. I don't regret my surgery for one day, I just know I could be doing a better job with it. Now everyone cross their fingers that my stall breaks and I reach my 100 lbs lost lol, thank you

So survived the holidays but ate way too much crap. I am now down to 160 some days 159, wish it would stay under 160 but hey what can you do. I wish the tickers would update lol.

Anyhow it has been a little rough for me lately, realizing I can eat pretty much any food well I have done just that, slowly working on getting back on track and back to the gym.

I have been lucky for a few things, no hair loss, but I did cut it very short and skin is doing good, i am not firm and toned but it isn't bad. I will try to work on firming up at the gym in the next while.

So I my stall is a little broken at the moment, lets cross your fingers that it continues. I am at 163.5, I was stuck at 167 to 169 so it is nice to see some movement, hoping it will continue working it's way down for little while . I am 8 months out tomorrow and I know I may stop loosing but nice to see it move for now. I have started back to the gym last week, starting to ton up. I haven't been very good with my vitamins lately need to re focus on that and as always my protein. Overall things have been good, when I eat things with too much sugar I definitely get gut rot, but I think my choices are getting better.

So i am still stuck, I have seen 166lbs a few days but then next day back at 167 lbs.  I have been stalled for like month and half now, I do feel I got smaller as I fit into 10s now, which is new. I really think it is because I am not getting in all my protein, I need to make a huge effort and change that, I started back to the gym this week but only been one day, i will be going again today after work. I expected to be pretty weak because it had been a few months and not a lot of calories but I was pretty surprised. I am going to track everything I eat for a week and see what is going on, I maybe be eating too little or too many carbs, guess we shall see. I don't regret surgery and still feel wonderful but to stop loosing weight at 6 months is sad to me, I was really wishing to loose another 25 to 30 lbs but guess that might not be in the plan for me. Maybe with the gym I can attain it or at least tighten everything up.

This surgery didn't fix my head, at 6 1/2 months out, I am eating crap, I am scared I can never change. I wish I had dumping, I wish I vomited so maybe it would help me to stay away from fast food and candy but I am just failing and it scares me so bad, will I be back to 255 lbs this time next year. What is wrong with me that I am doing this to myself again. I am not loosing any weight and I know it is my own fault, lack or protein and prob water.

So my scale finally started to move again at end of last week, I am now at 167 lbs, total loss of 88 lbs,  only 27 lbs away from my original goal, I am still shocked that I am so close to it because I have no clue when the last time I weighted this little was. I am still not always making the best choices but I am just trying to take one day at a time and make better choices with my food. I have been doing well with my vitamins and on and off with my protein. So hard to get it all right.

So the last month I was stuck on a more then 3 week stall, I have been testing the waters more and more and realized I can tolerate sugars, i am not liking that as that was my weakness and I am no where ready to say I am over them.  I have been doing well with my vitamins but not eating any extra protein. I need to re focus because I am scared I will fail. I have only lost a few lbs since last update, I am now at 172 lbs, so 83 lbs lost, I am still SLOWLY going down but so much slower then the past. I am not freaking out too much about it, well maybe I am on some days, I am so scared I will stop loosing weight soon. I think I need to get my ass back in gear, track foods and see what I am doing, maybe by putting it in front of me I can regain focus. People always say of easy way out, BS, this is a constant struggle for me, my tummy is smaller but the cravings and habits are still here.

So my weight loss has really slowed down a lot, I have only lost 4 lbs since Aug 1, so about 2 lbs a week. I can't say I expect more because I haven't been to the gym much in the last 3 weeks, that is my goal for next week. As for food I actually am eating less because everything seems to be giving me issues, I don't poop on a regular basis which probably has a lot to do with the slow loss but at least I am still loosing. On a positive note I am in the 170s, which I have no idea when the last time that happened is. I am at 179 lbs, so a total of 76 lbs lost in my almost 5 months. I am not complaining but I am scared I wont loose too much more from where I am and I am still pretty curvy lol.

Also positive, my confidence and sexiness is coming back, i feel much better and taking more chances with my appearances now, I cut my hair and shaved the side of my head, I love it. Also I went shopping and bought a lot of new stuff because everything I owned was just too loose and not fitting right anymore.

So my weight loss started a little again, I am now at 72 lbs lost, was stuck on a plateau but hopefully this means it will start to move again. My hair has been falling out a little more then before and that is scary. Noticing my arms much flabbier then before, sucks, but still feeling great and much better.