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Well 2morrow I turn 21 years old. If anyone would have told me at 21 I would have underwent gastric bypass I would have LAUGHED! I never thought that I would be one of those ppl who just had no other choice....I realize now that this is the best thing I could do for myself! Sure I am only a month or 2 out from surgery but this is the best thing that could have happened. SO as I turn 21 2morrow I am grateful, grateful for this chance to change my life. IT is also changing me as a person and I see things differently! I want better for myself and I don't want to be left behind! I"M EXCITED! I might be on a stall, but even though I am I AM losing tons of inches! i know the weight will pick up! So yay this is a great beginning!

Well I am currently 6 weeks out from surgery. I am however experiencing a stall of some sort. I haven't lost any weight in the last 3 weeks! Or maybe it's been two weeks, but I don't know! I just don't want to go back to the doct or in october not having lost anyway! I wish there was some way I could help this! Well I am going to try and up my protein and start walking more....maybe that will help it! Hopefully in the next two weeks I'll drop some weight!

Well what can I say! ...I started this journey at 318 and I am currently 269! I lost 18 lbs before surgery and 31...in about 3 weeks! I'm excited but I have been dealing with nausea. I actually was admitted into the hospital for dehydration and nausea! IT SUCKED! I am doing better and just happy to be home! Everyone keeps asking do u regret it! I'm like OMG Lay off..I'm only 3 weeks post op! This isn't the easiest time, but NO I DO NOT REGRET IT! I never would have lost 49 lbs on my own! I am currently in a size 20! YAY I was at a 24 a few months ago! I can also fit XL shirts! This is really blowing my mind. I do struggle with acutally seeing the weight loss. In my mind I still feel and look the same. Well I still struggle with protein and water, but it's getting better! I will be glad when I can eat something besides baby food though! LOL....well I gotta go...I'm about to go hang out with some friends! I'll write more later!

Well I'm finally home! I am still in a great deal of pain! Nothing seems to be helping. I am def. not getting enough liqiuds in. ...I'm scared of going past my limit! DWell I got to the hospital at 8:30 and was called back immediately. I was put in a gown, did urine test and given a heparin shot in my stomach. The medicine hurts worse than the needle. Next my family and friends came in and talked to me for a while....and then the doctor came in. About 11:25 I was sent to OR and before I knew it I was knocked out! I woke up in recovery in EXTREME PAIN...All I could do was moan and groan. IT WAS HORRIBLE> As the days went by .....I slowly started feeling better. I've been getting in my crystal light anf I'm currently drinking broth! Now that I'm home I'm really starting to feel the pain..of course I'm not on a PCA..so the pain has kicked in! Well I gotta go..not feeling so well! Wish me luck. until next time!

OMG ..surgery in the morning at 11:30... well I gotta be there at 8:30! I am actually alot calmer than I thought I would be. THe only problem is not eating and this freaking BOWEL PREP! It SUCKS MAJOR!! I am so hungry! Also I gotta get so much crap done and I'm tired! Where is the day going.? I have to wash clothes, my hair, and pack ....it's crazy! Well I gotta go! .......WISH me luck!

I HAVE 7 DAYS LEFT! YAY! This pre op diet is crazy! Well my highest weight was 318 and I am currently down to 300! I plan to lose about 5 more lbs before surgery! THis is great! Well gotta go! LATER

I have surgery in 14 days! WOW..I can't believe it. It almost seems surreal. I don't even know how to explain it. Am I emotionally ready? I start my pre op diet tuesday...which I am dreading! I do plan on sticking too it fully. I refuse to let old habits flare up. I had my BIG DINNER hoo-rah with my friends last night. We went to Olive Garden and just bugged out. It felt good and for once we all got along and just laughed. OMG>....can I repeat...I HAVE SURGERY in 14 days! I wonder if anyone else started freaking out this early! I start school in a little over a month! I am so excited about that because I am ready to have my own room(first time @ school) I've always had a roomie. Hopefully my transition will go well....I don't want to be sick in class! What can I do if it happens but deal with it though? So I was having pain in my upper right hand side(stomach) and like normal they went away before I got to the doctor. Hopefully when I go on friday for pre-op they will schedule some ultrasound. Everyone seems excited for me and I wonder who will actually be there to support me. I am still having problems with my friends....as usual. I have learned that I can't change ppl and that's final. I love my BEST FRIEND to death but things are rocky between us. Yeah we only talk like once a week now and it always seems strange. I can just hope that in time she'll come around and if not ...it's her lost. I refuse to change who I am to keep a friend...(in a bad way) I am not a club person, I don't enjoy drinking, and I'm not into having 50 boyfriends! That's just who I am. I have always been quiet and reserved.....I can't help it. I enjoy simple things like bowling or just chilling and laughing until tears come out. Is that so wrong? What is happening in the world that all young ppl feel the need to change who they are to have friends. It is not worth it> I am finally becoming content with myself.MY preacher preached a sermon today that really touched me. It was called The GOOD, THE BAD, and THe ugly! Her Subtopic: was AS IS! I have friends that are great, but have some bad and UGLy qualities. We all have that side of us , but we have to accept ppl as is. ...that is what I am trying to do. Everyone who knows the word of prayer pray for me and as this ugly battle with depression comes and goes.....I want to win!
P.S. ..sorry for the rambling!

so it only took one day to get approved and I have a date! AUGUST 6, 2007! I have wanted this for so long, so why am I not ecstatic? I don't know how to feel.........

Well I have exciting news.....My paperwork was sent in to Tricare on July 10th and I was approved July 11th! HOW EXCITING! I called the Tricare office and she said you were approved >YAY! ...okay back to earth...bad news! I still don't have a date because the doctors office claims they haven't received anything...and Tricare claims that they faxed on the 11th! UGH...my sister called the office today and pretended to be me. She told whoever answered that I needed to have Surgery ASAP...The ladys reply was that I could have surgery prolly the first week of August. Although that is great news...if she doesn't receive the fax then I still get NO WHERE! I have to move into my dorm (yes my OWN ROOM this year) on like the 27th I need to have SURGERY like August 1st.lol....Although I am excited beyond belief I'm worried things still won't go right. I told everyone I was approved and all I got was oh okay...good! Even my family responded like that. I wanted everyone to be so excited for me. Maybe I'm over doing it...but I thought they would be estatic. My  mom was like I'll be happy when u get a date. Also, not to put my personal business out there but my family is in a crazy financial situation...and my mom is the only one working! CRAZY...cause it's me, my sister, and my 2 neices living in a house together. I have to pay my next 250 when I got to my pre-op appointment and although, 250 isn't much for most ppl...for me right now thats like the hardest thing...plus I gotta have tons of stuff to go back to school with! CRAZY ....it'll work out..I just have to have faith! P.S. Friends still acting STUPID as usual...OR LACK OF

..that is how I feel. IT just sucks so bad right now. my doctor's office was doing really good until recently. The lady who works at the front desk is really slow when it comes to getting things done and she never calls back! I was told that my paperwork was already sent in, just to be told the next day that the doctor still needed to fill out some things. It is unfair...don't lie or assume....If I ask a question and it's your job to answer just answer truthfully! Is that so hard to do? Well I talked to the same lady last week and she said it should be sent in by friday! I am going to call her MONDAY morning and see. If I didn't have anything to do than I really wouldn't care. I have to start school in September..technically the end of august! I HAVE TO>..yeah this is my life and I need this surgery, but I would be devastated if I couldn't finish my last year of college. I have worked so hard to get both of these things...and it just seems to be falling apart. I just keep praying that GOD will hear me and answer my prayers. I wish I had more support on this WLS also. My mom and sister are really good at supporting, but my friends are nowhere to be found. MY best friend hasn't talked to me in like 1 month. I give up...I can't make someone be my friend and I shouldn't have too. It seems that because she is skinny she doesn't care and I understand she doesn't know my struggles.....but JUST LISTEN! I don't even care anymore. It is what it is! I just wish this was behind me....I kinda wanted surgery over the summer so not only would I come back new and improved..I also wouldn't have to be under the watch of 500 college girls! I attend an all girls college by the way! This is going to be so hard...oh well! Nothing worth having is easy! Well I am going to bed! It is late!Thanks for listening..if anyone is!