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Today was just... a bad day. I'm a pretty optimistic person and I've only had 2 bad days my WHOLE life, counting today. So...

The company who I quit from won't give me my final paycheck. There giving me the run around. I've been stressing for days and now they are accusing me of unprofessional things. I can't believe this. So now I have to go through the state to get my rightful pay, that was just this morning. This afternoon a brand new bottle of Dayquil broke open in my bag and covered everything. My wallet, my cash, my change, my CELL PHONE, EVERYTHING. I found out when I was sitting in my car and pulled my bag off the passenger seat (which was drenched) and I laid it, by habit on my lap which (you guessed right) drenched me in Dayquil.

My absent minded older sister (todays her birthday) swore to me while I was driving that my phone was fine. I got to my Dads house and opened the back and out gooed out (try and guess????)..... Dayquil.

I went to pick up my last retail check and double parked and got a parking ticket. As I walked into the store I zipped up my jacket and up wafted the smell of cat pee (thank Mr. Mustache) my sisters new kitty peed on it. After I went to my grandmothers house and my cousins boyfriend ate my dinner. I went to cash my check at the bank to buy dinner when my account was overdrawn by (get this...) 1 cent so I was overdrafted 35$ and could not take my money out of the account till tomorrow.

Thinking things couldn't get worse I checked my cell phones warranty and it doesn't covers (liquid spills) Yay for me :(. It keeps turning off and on over and over again. My sister called me to invite me to a surprise b-day party her boyfriends family through her but I missed it because of my phone.

So here I am, home, hungry, angry and hysterically laughing at this screwed up day. I went to change into my jammies and my sisters evil little kitten pooed and peed in my clean laundry basket.

I guess all I CAN do is laugh. I rarely get bad days but when I do there vicious.

Bright side, tomorrow I'm making Tamales with the Family.

Everyone take care
Kristen

Have a sinus cold or hay fever (which ever). I moved to Pomona and my bodies not used to the new air it seems. I've never been a wuss. LOL So now my nose its dripping with watery boogies, my eyes are watery too. I sneeze every 5 seconds and my throat is itchy and achy. Yay me!!!! :(

Love to rant. :)

Anyways... missed out on my mommas big christmas party because of it. Its alright. I cozied up with my animals and reread one my favorite book's, the host. Had some hot canned soup (yum) and lazed around most of the day.

Last night I was lame and stayed in. I got more appeals and more scientific articles to add to my appeal. I want to thank everyone who's helped me so far. I am stressing MUCH less now. I started on it too. Its a wrok in progress. Once I'm finished I'll post it so you guys can give me some much welcomed constructive critism.

As for my weight... I'm still bouncing around 285- 288. I haven't been dieting, just maintaining. My relationship with food has TRULY changed. I haven't binged**** Which I am SO relieved and proud of. I eat what I want but don't overdue it. There's no pressure on losing this much or that much, I'm just eat when I can and not eating alot and it feels AWESOME like a weights been lifted off my shoulders. My only rule is... don't gain this holiday season and the way its looking, I'll be just fine. :)

Hope everyone is kicking butt on there weight loss journeys. People who are waiting in the wings... its going to happen. Be patient and have faith.

Take care
Kristen

So long story short I quit my real estate assistant job. Basically it was an "under the table" type job and I'm DEFINITELY not interested in that. Not enough pay and too much risk for that. So... I have a TON of freetime now. So...

I've made two consultations with two more surgeons. I LOVE Dr. Feiz but his coordinator is on the fence with VSG. She's not saying I won't get it but she seems to be hinting that its going to be a problem scheduling the hospital. I guess, most hospitals don't "do" VSG because its experimental (which is rediculous. Wish they went on OH forums!!!!). Thats the vibe I get from her. She's been awesome and I trust her so with that I want to keep my options open and shop around still.

So on Monday  I'm going to Dr. Owens Seminar and wednesday night I'm going to Dr. Dorwaismy Seminar. I get those "excited" jitters just thinking about it. My cousin who's 2 years postop from RNY is coming with me as moral support. She's really excited that were on board for surgery now. I was against surgery for a LONG time. I guess I couldn't understand why but now I CAN see. I've honestly and truly have tried.

My last resort was WLS and I was scared to death of Gastric bypass. So I started researching lap band and STILL hated the thought of it all, then my older sis saw a nightline special on VSG. We went to youtube and found the clip and from the first moment I saw the procedure I KNEW that was the tool that would get me to goal and beyond.

Since then I've been researching it for the past 6 months or so.  I joined Weight watchers on and off but have still been struggling. On Nov 1st I made a decision, I would go for VSG and just maintain till I get my surgery in 2011.

Youtube vlogs and the OH VSG forum has been keeping me sane these past months. I'm so excited and have hope now (which is rare for me).

Got a little side tracked (sorry). Just really happy I made this decision and I'm going for it. I've been watching all your progress on here and its just inspired me so much. I've been collecting data like a mad women and have been filling my sisters (who are having there's later this year as well) in on all the tid bits I collect. My father is also having his done too.

My mother isn't left out. In 1976 she had an intestinal bypass. She can EAT alot and lose weight like nothing since they left her stomach alone and cut ALOT of her intestines. But with that comes health problems like malnutrition, vitamin deficiency, anemia. She has cramping in her hands from lack of potasium and severe cramps in her lower back all due from her malabsorption.

I don't want to deal with that. I just need to eat less.

So everyone take care. I put up a new youtube update a couple days ago. I hope everyone kicks butt on there journeys and for us still waiting...

Its gonna happen.

Take Care
Kristen

OMFG!!! Its raining like crazy here in socal. I'm nestled up with my puppies and kitties tonight while the rain pours on the roof. Just wanted to come and write. I've been truly busy with work. I ended my retail job which was at... Forever 21. I loved the craziness, the store, the workers and the management, but my body needs a rest. My managers loved me and told me that whenever I choose to comeback I'd have a job waiting for me. That makes me happy. As for the new job... its shady.

I was going to type all my frustrations out about the new job, but I'm not. I'm just confused weather I want to leave asap or wait it out. I feel I should leave asap but my mom and family says to quit on the 15th so I can collect another check. I'm confused :(. I guess tomorrow I'll go in for my shift and wait it out.

As for my appeal I've been working on it off and on. I want it to be just... fantabulous. If I use it, I use it. If I don't I don't. Ehh

Gearing up for Vegas for new years. I'm VERY excited. We try and go every year and this year, the WHOLE families going which makes it even better. I got paid on friday and bought an outfit for new years and a pair of size 12 jeans. There going in the "what if" pile in my closet. Soon I shall slip into those suckers and not wrestle them on.

I also made a new vlog, it just an update on what I've been doing before I get the ball rolling. I also want to give a shout out to the lovely ladies and gents of the VSG board. I love your post. They keep me sane. LOL

So take care all, I'll be seeing you on the losers bench soon
Kristen

Thats two for me now. Never thought I'de be a two job kind of gal but here I am. My cothing store job has been INSANE but I do love it. Tomorrows my first official day at the new office assistant job. I'm VERY excited. I always wanted a 9-5 type job, just to try it out, just to see how it goes. My retail job is on my mind... I do love the insanity of it all but I'm going to tell them weekends only now. I want to keep my options open, but eventually the retail job will have to go. I'm a little sad about that but the pay is not worth the swollen knees and ankles and the back pain. It just isn't.

Anyways... been busy with work and now I'm going to be even busier. Thats good I guess. I wanted to keep proccupied then stress about my surgery and the stupid apeal, that may or may not happen. As for that, I haven't really touched that since last week. I guess I'll start on it this sunday when I have a free day.

My weight has... gone up. I'm currently at 292!!! Yikes! I get home and just gorge. Bad, bad, bad Kristen.

Today I had a day off and worked on my cooler than cool 80's Toyota Celica (thats right, I'm pimp like that). I installed a new radio in her and changed the oil and windshield wipers. Got all greased monkeyed up. It was a sight to see. Then I got home and relaxed, did laundry and cleaned my sheets and blankets. Then I got my email from the new job and jumped for joy. Yay.

One bad note is I have no office slacks, so I had to borrow from my mom whos a size:20/22. I can wear the slacks but I can't button the top button of the slacks... Thats a huge bummer. I have to wait till Friday, my retail payday and get some during the weekend. Makes me feel more like baby Jaba. But soon this won't be an issue anymore. I just need to look on the bright side and remember that.

Everyone Take Care and Kick butt on your journeys. I'll be right on the losers bench soon.
Kristen

All of your fingers must have been crossed, I ended up opening today or last nite???? I guess???? Anyways, OMG it was INSANE. There was only eight of us and its a HUGE store (DAMN cheap a$$ company), I worked 11:30 to 8am and it was a MAD HOUSE. This was my third black friday worked and it was just... well, lets just say I'm mentally scared and will forever flinch as I fold a pair of jeans.

I'm happy I got it over with and I'm SO happy its over and I don't have to close. YAY!!! But my body is shot. I have bad knees due to my weight and they feel like someone twisted them at the joints. My lower back and thighs hurt. My upper body from the never ending folds. I had stamina due to my three times a week gym visits but my body just couldn't handle all the running around. Feet are tender too. Did I mention I have a cold too? :(

So I work again tomorrow ony a three hour shift which is a GOD SENT. I came home around 8:30 and just crashed. I didn't wake up till 6pm. I had one of those uncle fester sinks in bed and falls asleep moments. My obedient tini by my side.Lol Shes a funny little dog.

So I just wanted to rant about that... (feels good).

Turkey day was fun. Its always nice to be around family and friends. I ate light due to work being right after (didn't want o run around with a full stomach). Had my once a year fix of pumpkin pie too. My cousin who's had gastric is really excited that I'm going for the sleeve. She can't wait to have her shopping buddy back. My whole family's been VERY supportive. We do have the "lucky" genes people who are jerks and have never been "heavy" I ignored them when they put there two cents in. They couldn't comphrehend it only until they've lived in my skin so... screw 'em.

Other than that Thanksgiving went well and my uncle Jeff kicked a$$ as chef this year. During grace I thought of everything I was thankful for and was happy to have my family in good health (my mom and Grammy had a few scares this year) and my health, my sisters. My moms working, I'm working and how much different my life has changed in the last year and I was VERY thankful. Everymorning I wake up thankful, but every Thanksgiving in magnifies for me.

As for my appeal, started reading through some of the ones I picked off line and highlighted what I wanted to put in. Started gathering information and making an outline of how I'm going to put this massive thing together. Best scenario, I spend weeks writing this thing and I don't need it. LOL

Take Care
Kristen

So today started off the same, nothing new, except the weather. OMG its cold!!!! Us winey Californias. Crying about the weather. Anyways... mom came home, ate dinner then me and my mom had a huge fight. Let me give you background on my mother.... she's super childish. When I left the room, she was putting her hands over her ears, shaking her head and closing her eyes, saying she wasn't listening.
Yeah. She's one of those.
Its frustrating. I let her yell at me but she can't listen to me, my thoughts and responses. Just VERY frustrated right now.
Anyhoo... (yes, I just said anyhoo)

Been doing more research on my insurance and tonight going to start on my appeal. I don't really have too but its a "just in case." I rather have it ready then be scrambling trying to get it done. Best case scenario, I don't need it, but its good to have it anyways.

Also on the job front. I called yesterdays interviewer and told her I was still VERY interested in the position. She told me she would get back to me on Friday or Monday the latest. Which reminds me, my new job at the clothing store has been giving me the run around on black friday hours. Sort of freaking out about it. I worked sunday and it was a MAD house so I can only imagine Black Friday... I'm scared. Cross your fingers that I don't close.

Excited for "Happy, happy Turkey day..." Tomorrow. The whole families going to my aunts. Theres 26 of us and thats just the close family, not counting girlfriends, boyfriends and guests. Its going to be fun. This will be my last Thanksgiving being a biggin. I'm looking forward to that. Next year will be different. I won't hide from the camera next year. : )

Have a "Happy, Happy Turkey day."
Take Care
Kristen

I just recently got a job at this AWESOME clothing store and just today I got a call back to interview for a better job with insurance and benefits. So I rushed home showered and got ready in... (drum roll please) 30 minutes. OMG. I definitely broke a record there. So I interviewed very well, made her laugh a couple of times and am hoping I get the job.
These type of things always come in three for me. Lol So I'll probably get another offer soon. Things tend to happen for me that way.
Its been so cold. Me and my baby, appletini have been snuggling to keep warm. The other's usually jump in bed with me and burrow like the little p dogs they are and warm me up. Even my tokenese Sephra snuggles at my feet. Socal has definitely been chili.
As for my preporation for my Sleeve surgery, I've been collecting appeals just in case there buttheads and deny me. I'm going to read over all of them and get what I can from each one. I really want to be prepared with that and know I did everything possible to do it right and not half a$$ it.
So... thats where I'm at.
As for the new job... keep your fingers crossed. I'll try my dads new way of living: The Secret. He keeps telling me to manifest positive energy. Keep positive and good things will come, so I'll try my best.
Been seeing all your journeys and have been so motivated and inspired.
Take Care All
Kristen

Hello ladies and gents of OH. Hi there, my name is Kristen and I am going for VSG surgery in January 2011. I have a PPO bc/bs insurance and it looks like I'm going to be denied, like most of you have. I take anti- inflamitory's do to my weight bearing down on my weak knees. I'm also insulant resistant. I hope thats enough for my first appeal to get approved.
I'm still fairly in the early stages of getting my sleeve. I've had my consultation, met with my surgeon (who I trust) and now I'm waiting.... and waiting for the new year to start my preops and get the ball rolling.
Its hell. I'm very impatient. LOL
But it will all be worth it. I'm looking over appeals and want to get the surgery asap (I know, we all do). Lol. But I have a deadlin to get it. You see, with Obamas new bill, I can get insurance until my 26th birthday which is April 11th, 2011. After my birthday, no coverage, so.... I need to hustle and get my Sleeve. I have 3 months and 11 days. Yeah, I'm cutting it close.
If worse comes to worse I'll pay out of pocket and get it done with Dr. Alvarez this summer in Mexico. But I really would like to save the money for a new wardrobe. LOL
I'm getting a lot of pressure from friends and family to get Gastric Bypass. My cousin got the surgery in 2008 and had lost and maintained since then. She has no health problems, I guess shes one of the lucky few who don't. Anyways... I don't want Gastric or the band. Their just now right for me. I never believed in having WLS until I saw the Sleeve. A light switched on in my thick skull and I knew it was the right surgery for me.
I've been a big girl my whole life, always 100+ pounds overweight. I've tried every diet and plan and supplement and pill known to man. I've NEVER been "normal" so I'm hopeing VSG will be the perfect tool to get me there. 
So I'm going to fight for my Sleeve. I'm ready for my insurance to deny me and I'll be ready with an appeal. I feel very strongly that I will get it. I'll keep thinking positive thoughts and stop stressing eating about it.
I hope to chat with you all. If you want to follow my journey I have a youtube channel: KikiRox85  where I'm going to document my whole journey, the good and the bad.
Take Care
Kristen