Kim J.
6 months are upon us!
Jun 10, 2009
I can't believe its been almost 6 months since I had surgery. It seems like just days ago I was jumping through all the insurance hoops, getting all of my required pre-surgery testing and being so nervous and scared to have surgery. I'm so much happier now. I have a pride in myself I have never had before. I feel deserving and lovable. I have lost weight before and been smaller for a minute. I was NEVER as content with myself as I am now. I don't know if its because I'm older or because of where I've been. I know what 72 more lbs feels like. I know that I look and feel better then I have in years.I was thinking the other day about being a kid. I weighed 210 lbs when I was 10 years old. I wore a size 40 Levi jeans. I missed so much being so heavy. I lost weight when I was 15 between my sophomore and junior year. I lost it on my own FAST. Over the summer. When I went back to school no one could believe it. Then I was pregnant at 17. I lost weight after my divorce at 20 only to gain it back when I got pregnant at 21. Then after my second divorce I lost weight again for a minute only to gain it back after we split and life became VERY hectic. I re-married and I am very happily married. In October it will be 16 years! He has never complained about my weight. He has always loved me and wanted me the way I am. However he isn't complaining now! LOL!
I feel like my life is in a more stable place and I hope that I can make this work. I'm so used to failing at weight loss I just expect it. I want to make these changes permanent. I'm exercising and working on my eating. I still have some bad eating habits. Only I eat less. I'm in counseling and its empowering for me to have a plan. That helps.
If there is anyone out there that is thinking about WLS I would tell them about my experience. I would also make sure they know its an individual choice. There are ups and downs and surgery isn't a magic cure all to being fat. There are still issues with food that need to be resolved and I'm working on them. I'm still waiting on the brain surgery to help me out! LOL
I have made myself right at home here on OH. I have many friends on here that I can count on for support. I know that at anytime I can post something and any one of this is there with an answer, support or a good butt kicking! The research I did before surgery left me very prepared. I have to remember that I'm a work in progress and I'm always learning. I told my physiologist the other day that I have to be informed and I have to have the knowledge because I want to be supportive to anyone and everyone I can that is going through WLS. Its a major life change and the more I know and the better prepared I am, I not only help myself, but I can help a friend too!
I guess I've written enough for this time. If anyone is reading this! Have a happy Day!!!
TTFN!
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About Me
Claremore, OK
Location
35.7
BMI
Surgery
12/16/2008
Surgery Date
Oct 19, 2006
Member Since
