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So for Christmast my in-laws gave my hubby and I a gift certificate for Great Wolf Lodge - A fat girl's nightmare!!  My immediate reaction was can we wait until after my surgery?  I can't go looking the way I do!  How selfish am I?  I have 2 little girls who would just love to go, and hubby was really excited too! 

So anyway my hubby had this whole week off and it was his birthday Tues and he thought I would be a nice winter getaway for our family.  So I booked our vacation and made sure the doggie nanny was availble to watch my furry babies for Jan 26th which is hubby's bday.  We pack up and away we went I did  A LOT of self talking on the way there trying to prepare myself for what I was certain was going to be a tense vacation.  I bought a new bathing suit and cover up so at least I could feel good about what I had on even if I didn't feel good about myself.

It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be I really just focused on my family and how much fun my kids were having 3 & 5 are such great ages!  I also just kept thinking about how next year when we go I will be in a much better place about myself confidence and image!!!!!

So my very active babies are off to bed thank goodness.  I love being a stay at home mom but really when you're fighting a nasty cold that came out of nowhere ugh.....
Hubby was able to leave work early and let me have a nap for a bit he took the girls out to run errands.  I have nothing to complain about in the hubby department!!!  Or kids my girls who are almost 4 and almost 6 are so amazing I am really blessed. 
They are the reason this surgery is so important to me I want to be around for many years yet.  I have cheated death twice and was reminded by my sister that I'm not a cat and don't have 9 lives. 
June 9th 1999 ~ While working at my summer job at the Elora Gorge Conservation area.  So happy that on such a hot day I got to go home and change into shorts and sneekers to walk down and look for a deer that had apparently fallen over the gorge.  I needed to locate this deer.  2 hours in I was wet and tired called my supervisor to get me out and was told that because of where I was I had only two choices cross the river or climb out where I was.  Well at 21yrs I was invincible or at least I thought so.  The men who were kyaking right at that spot said there was no way I could cross safely but that they would spot me to get out.  From what I've been told I made it just about to the top when I lost my footing and fell 40 feet to the bottom landing face down in about 8 feet of water.  Thank god for those men that day they grew angel wings and saved my life.  I broke my back in 2 places and had other cuts and bruises and a long recovery but here I am.
August 24 2008 ~ while driving to my nephew's birthday party with my girls in the van with me on a country road outside of St.Jacobs.  I blacked out behind the wheel.  When I came to we were headed straight into a post I over corrected to avoid the pole and completely lost control of my van.  We crossed the highway spun right around hitting the ditch on the other side which caused us to catch air and flip several times.  The van finally rested on it's roof in a farmers field.  I had no idea what had happened or even where we were.  I was able to find my cell phone and call my hubby at work then some other motorists stoped to help my girls and I.  The bravery people show in such horrific situations astonishes me.  This young guy reached in covered my oldest with a floor mat and smashed out the window then climbed in the free my children and finally me.  Thank god we only had minor injuries we went to hospital to be examined and were release but not before I was charged with careless driving.  Due to the circumstances I plead guilty to a lesser charge of leaving the road in an unsafe manner with a minimal penalty.
And there are people who say angels don't exist.
So now here I am living each day to it's fullest knowing that this surgery will only make me stronger and better able to live the life I need to.
Wow did I ever go on a rant tonight!
Hubby's got a spot for my on the couch and a hot tea!  Hopefully I'll wake up feeling better tomorrow.

Today I am feeling especially excited about my surgery.  I have met so many wonderful people on this site who have had or are going to have their surgery in Guelph also.  It is so helpful and reassuring to be able to talk to others who really understand what it's like.  Don't get me wrong my hubby and family are very supportive but there's that element of uncertainty because they have no idea what I'm going through and why I have chosen to have my surgery.  The sun is out and the sky is blue today it's hard no to feel excited and happy about the journey ahead!!!

I am so thankful that I found this site and all of the wonderful people who are part of it.  It's so nice to get to talk to people who are or who have had their surgery in Guelph where I will be having my surgery.  I am getting so excited to be getting closer to the beginning of my journey.  My first appointment is scheduled for March 19th, 2010 in Guelph.  For now it's just a matter of making it through the holidays!

Thinking about everyone who is getting ready to have their surgery or who have just had surgery.