On My Way

Sep 06, 2009

Well I am over 2 months out now. i started in a size 26W and down to a 20W pants.  Havnt had any major complications.  Lost 54lbs so far so about 1/3 of the way there.  I know logically this is a major accomplishment.  I weigh less now than I did when I got pregnant with my 2nd son.  I have a pile of clothes that wont fit because its too big.  But still I wonder if i am losing fast enough?  Am I eating the right things?  I have so many questions these days and so few answers.  I am not a very social person so my support level is near zero.  I dont have any friends here at all so that makes it difficult as well.  I have just never been good at socialilzing.  I usually do the wrong thing or say the wrong things and dont even know it till its too late.  I have also recently dealing with some other problems in my life that hinder things, but its something I cant just openly talk about on here.  I try going to a local support group, but somehow every week that I attend I go home feeling like I have done everything wrong and feel like a total failure.  I just wish this wasnt such a mystery.

Anyway, I knew this would be a difficult journey but never thought that I would feel so alone and feel like a such a failure. 

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