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Ok, so I had a bad day yesterday!  I get on the scale on Mondays to check on my weight progression... well yesterday when I got on the scale I was surprised to see that I had only lost 3 lbs!  How can this be?  Monday - Friday last week I walked at least 2 miles, which is a HUGE thing for me because I have never really done any exercise!  I thought for sure, I would be able to see it in the product of this on the scale!  Luckily, I have a coworker who is in the same boat and has gone through some of these things before.  She has been very helpful and I have been able to vent to her.  She has continued to encourage me to continue walking.. eventhough I don't see the point if it isn't going to do anything... ok so I see the point, but just mad right now!  Yesterday I was soooo mad I wanted to just eat my misery away!  AND COULDN'T, which made me even more mad!!!!!  

Ok, so I had surgery on July 18, 2011... I figured it was time to start writing about my experience.  As of last Monday I have lost 32 lbs!  This is alot, I do understand that.  But it is hard for me to see a change in myself.  I still see the fat girl, who will always be the fat girl   I know it takes time and I am trying to occupy my time by maintaining a walking regimen.  A co worker of mine also had the surgery a few months before me and we have been walking the parking deck twice a day!!!! If we walk up and down, that is a mile... it feels awesome when we are done, the feeling of accomplishment is fantastic! 
I am a born pessimist, I know this... I think of all the things that can go wrong and then just expect for them to happen.  I can't help it!  Let's just hope that I don't let this get in my way of being successful.  I have a very busy life and hope to get on here at least every Monday, which is the day I plan to weigh myself every week!  I am looking for new friends who have been through this process or going through this process, to share in the constant need to help each other in this struggle!