feeling sad and alone...

Sep 23, 2009

i don't know how else to express my feelings but right now i'm a week and a half post op, i can't eat anything and i'm soo hungry and on top of that, i'm feeling extremely alone. I live on campus and everyone is eating so much food around me like mcdonalds and such and yeah, i walk away, but it just gets me thinking, did i do the right thing? right now with the way im feeling i would totally turn to food, but since i can't, all i want to do is bust out and cry to the world. i'm having such a hard time being post op. i don't know what to do. i'm so miserable that i'm afraid that i will sabatoge myself. i'm not asking for anyone to feel sorry for me or pity me, i just have no where else to turn to but here because i feel like i can express myself easily to a bunch of internet bloggers than my own mom. lol but then i can just tell myself how i would feel but then i would look crazy. lol

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