Guilt

Jan 19, 2012

I can't eat anything anymore without this terrible sense of guilt over me. I know in my heart that this is my moment, that 2012 is my year to finally reach my dream of getting RNY GB. I am definitely a food addict and should have been dieting regularly for the past 6 months but I am human and I have had slip ups. I am hungry right now, physically and although I really want to eat a breakfast burrito I have this horrible feeling over me called GUILT. I prayed last night for Jesus to give me strength to lose this weight and I think this horrendous guilt I am feeling is helping me at every meal. I want a burrito but I need fruit and some oatmeal. I refuse to do this to myself any longer. Today is the day I change for good. Not only that but being called a "fat bitch" by your soon-to-be EX-husband helps with the way you look at food too. LOL! On to bigger and better things for me...in more ways than one! XOXOXO

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