Back on Track-ish

Jul 28, 2016

So I've been going to the Crossfit for six months now, and I am down 30 pounds from 253 to 223.  I feel good, and I can see my body transforming...getting leaner and harder in some places.  My abdominal area is still flabby and soft so I'll need to wrok on that.  Thinking about adding a pilates class once a week to my 3-days a week Crossfit regimen.  Can't hurt.  So I'm over 4 years out from my surgery and I wish I was at my goal weight. My hair has been really thinning lately and it's pretty obnoxious.  I wonder if I'll be bald one day...  Anyways, that's my brief update.  We'll see where I am in another six months I guess.  

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A lot of Changes

Jan 04, 2016

Since my last post so many things have happened in my life.  In June 2013 I got pregnant and then delivered the best baby boy in February 2014.  I love that this happened but it had an impact on my weight loss.  My last post was me weighing in at 188lbs and now I'm 65lbs heavier at 253.  I only have myself to blame for this.  During my pregnancy I managed my weight very well and only gained 26lbs. After Liam was born I dropped most of it in the following month, but then it started creeping back.  I wasn't able to go back to pilates because of not having childcare and I wasn't working full time so I got really flabby.  Now it's January 2016 and my son is almost two years old and I'm just fat again.  I'm uncomfortable and am having a lot of back pain.  I need to get this under control.  I'm going to start going to a Crossfit twice a week to start back on my journey.  I also need to get my diet under control.  Grant and I have fallen back into old eating patterns with refined carbs and sugar.  We're going to stop this.  I'm going to get this back on track.  

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One more month to go!

Mar 28, 2013

In exactly one month I will reach my one year surgiversary
Weighed in at 197 today. Probably won't lose more than 5-7 in the coming month, but I guess I'll take it :)

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Onederland!!!!!!

Mar 20, 2013

I am 11 months out from my surgery, and I have finally hit a huge milestone...ONEDERLAND! It feels amazing.  The last time i was one hundred anything was a good 8-9 years ago, but here I am, at 198 lbs...and it's only going to get better.  My BMI has dropped ~20 points as it started at 53.4 and I can't wait until the day where it says I am a normal weight. Pilates has been great for me and I'm loving the firmness of my body. My goal for these next 13 months is to reach my target weight of 135-140 lbs.  I know the road will be tough as the weight loss is slowing down, and the stalls are increasing, but I will do this. I will reach my goal weight.  

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8 Months Out

Jan 19, 2013

Today I stepped on the scale and lo and behold, I have lost 100 pounds!  It blew my mind.  I still have 71 pounds to go to reach my goal of 140, but I will get there.  With the help of pilates and the support of my husband, I will get there. It's so crazy! I feel great!

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9 weeks out

Jul 07, 2012

So here I am, 9 weeks out from my surgery, holding to having lost 41 pounds.  It's frustrating, I feel like I need to lose everyday though I know that's ridiculous.  I'm an obsessive weigher. I have been weighing everyday, sometimes multiple times a day, for the past few weeks and I have finally asked my husband to hide the scale from me. I will commit to weighing twice a month to track progress. It's so retarded that I must do that, but I feel like I can't stop myself.  My days would be ruined from the time I got up if I hadn't lost weight.  I feel like I should have lost at least 50lbs by now. I fear somehow I have ruined my surgery, that I've stretched my stoma, or that I will never see one hundred anything much less my lofty goal of 130lbs.  I feel left out that I don't have a nutritionist like everyone else on here seems to have. I don't even know if my ins would cover one.  I should find out.  My surgeon's operation is very bare, his office staff consists of himself and his receptionist and I don't even know who will do my followup care such as labs.  I have an appointment the 18th so I will ask if that just has to be done through my PCP.  The days are weird.  Sometimes I'm feeling great, knowing I can do this for the long haul, then others I'm pretty down and worried about everything.  All I can do is make the right choices, take the supplements, exercise daily, and drink...I'm at the mercy of my body though as to if it will comply and lose the weight.  I'm scared of my first big stall, it will kill me. I'm scared of losing 100lbs and just being done. This journey takes a huge toll psychologically :(
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Two Month Surgiversary

Jun 28, 2012

This time 2 months ago I was prepping for my life changing surgery.  I'm down 38lbs so far which feels amazing though I still wish it was more.  I guess I'm destined to have weight and food always dominate my life.  Constantly counting, watching what I'm eating, trying to lose, maintaining the lost weight...seems so unfair.  I wish this surgery solved everything...like a cure, oh I reached my goal weight so i'm finished and moving on with my life.  Of course it can never be like that, but it would be nice. 

So, now that I'm 2 months out I've learned a lot and will most likely continue to learn. I'm feeling way more energetic and actually look forward to exercise...which in the past I would have never fathomed.  A few weeks after my surgery I had like negative energy, all I wanted to do was sleep for 17 hours a day.  My incisions are still pretty ugly, but I suppose that's a small price to pay for this amazing opportunity.  The seemingly constant hunger that I was having has now stopped since I've been making protein smoothies...guess that was my body yelling at me.  Overall....I feel great!  I'm starting to see a big difference in the mirror, and yesterday a coworker who hadn't seen me in weeks was amazed.  It felt really good.  Of course I didn't tell her how besides drastically changing my eating and exercising which is true...so I don't feel badly about wanting to keep it on the DL.  Tonight I'll take some pictures to continue photodocing my journey.  I'm so impatient, I just want to be 130lbs now.  Thinking about all the things I want to do when I'm "skinny" is driving me crazy.  I have an adventurous skinny girl on the inside, but I'm a fat girl on the outside and that's what wins out the most.  Anyways, I guess that's all for now.
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Been a meh day

Jun 22, 2012

Today has been hard for me. It's "that time" and all I've wanted to do is eat carbs and chocolate and shurk exercise.  It feels so weird to me, either I feel like I have hunger pangs or when I do eat then I'm too full feeling...then that passes in about 30 minutes and I swear I have hunger pangs again.  I don't know if I'm eating too much or if those feelings are hunger. Bleh.  Can't I just be 130 already?  lol

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First Blog Post

Jun 21, 2012

As my ever so clever title states this is my first post.  I have been tooling around on this site for a few days now and have decided to officially sign up.  I was at first too shy to put all my numbers out on the internet for everyone to see, but people seem pretty supportive and that's what I want from this site..a place of non judgement and acceptance.  So I stepped on the scales today and they said 275. I am down 36lbs from my start weight of 311 and I guess that's good.  I will be 2 months post op 6/28/12 and I have mixed feelings.  I wonder if I'm losing the weight at a good pace, or if I should weigh less at this time.  I'm scared that I'm still eating too much, or when I feel the full sensation that I'm stretching out my pouch. I seem to get dull hunger pangs, not like I would when I was pre-op, but that worries me because I thought you were supposed to go almost a year with no hunger.  I don't know, I just worry about my weight now more than I think I did before. Everything I put into my mouth makes me worry. I thought I would be so ecstatic having done this but the reality is I'm not ecstatic.  I feel happy that I am losing the weight and getting active and healthy, but it feels so differently than I had expected.     
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