MC83
Two Month Surgiversary
Jun 28, 2012
This time 2 months ago I was prepping for my life changing surgery. I'm down 38lbs so far which feels amazing though I still wish it was more. I guess I'm destined to have weight and food always dominate my life. Constantly counting, watching what I'm eating, trying to lose, maintaining the lost weight...seems so unfair. I wish this surgery solved everything...like a cure, oh I reached my goal weight so i'm finished and moving on with my life. Of course it can never be like that, but it would be nice.So, now that I'm 2 months out I've learned a lot and will most likely continue to learn. I'm feeling way more energetic and actually look forward to exercise...which in the past I would have never fathomed. A few weeks after my surgery I had like negative energy, all I wanted to do was sleep for 17 hours a day. My incisions are still pretty ugly, but I suppose that's a small price to pay for this amazing opportunity. The seemingly constant hunger that I was having has now stopped since I've been making protein smoothies...guess that was my body yelling at me. Overall....I feel great! I'm starting to see a big difference in the mirror, and yesterday a coworker who hadn't seen me in weeks was amazed. It felt really good. Of course I didn't tell her how besides drastically changing my eating and exercising which is true...so I don't feel badly about wanting to keep it on the DL. Tonight I'll take some pictures to continue photodocing my journey. I'm so impatient, I just want to be 130lbs now. Thinking about all the things I want to do when I'm "skinny" is driving me crazy. I have an adventurous skinny girl on the inside, but I'm a fat girl on the outside and that's what wins out the most. Anyways, I guess that's all for now.
