The Journey Continues

May 11, 2010

So I had my surgery, Everything went well.  I had some trouble coming out of the anestesia, but when I came out I was fine.  Got up, walked around.  Left the hospital the next day.  Everybody in the fam was super supportive.  Including my husband.  He has really been great.  He is even calling me a skinny bastard every time I tell him how much I lose.  it totally tickles me! 

Im wearing clothes I couldnt fit in a few years after 3 weeks.  I couldnt even shop at ross before the surgery.  ON mothers day i went to my my mothers house and tried on some of her clothes.  She gave me a 1x shirt and do you know that MF fit??  And looked GOOD!  Mothers day was the first time my mother seen me since the surgery and she saw the front of me and said wow you are definitely losing weight, then i turned around and walked away and she almost had a fit. "OH YES GIRL YOU ARE LOSING LOOK AT THAT BUTT!!" 

I have had a few wow moments.  I chose the b12 shots and I gave myself a shot which was  a wow for me that I was brave enough to do it on my own.  People say i have  my glow back again.  I just feel happy which is a wow.  I feel like im finding that pre marriage/mommy me.  I take pride in my appearence.  When I go out, I put in earrings and dress nice and make sure my ankles are all ashy. Though its only been 3 weeks i feel comfortable in my skin again.  I feel comfortable in my clothes.  Im glad I did something for myself and I do deserve it.  My family deserves a healthy mom and my husband deserves an energetic wife.  

Though I have lost the use of my scale due to a incident right before disneyworld which i was found in the bathroom naked weighin myself as everybody was ready to walk out the door, I can at least still measure my weightloss in my clothes.  Per my husband I can weigh myself in 2 weeks so i look forward to that.

I have been seeing a therapist on a regular basis and im thankful for her.  Any issues I have, i can go and just get it out.  She specializes in weight loss patients so she understands. 

Though this whole adventure has been full of ups and downs to date, i think overall im glad I did it.  Finally i can stop imagining what it would be like if i lost weight on my own and how life could be different for me by the end of the year to knowing that im busting my ass going to the gym every day and doing what im suppose to do and things WILL be different by the end of year. 

My major goal come hail or high waters is to get to 199.9 by 12/31/2010 (my bday is on 1/1/11and i turn 30!!)  I just realized how freaky that looked.  I want to see the 100's at least once in my 20s.  Yall pray I make it!

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