~~~ Triple C. ~.
My 1yr Surgiversary post on the message board as promised!
Jul 12, 2007
Well here I am on my Surgiversary, on FRIDAY July 13Th no less. Not only am I celebrating yet another type of BIRTHday for me BUT drum roll please...... I'VE MADE THE DOUBLE CENTURY CLUB TOO, OFFICIALLY!!!! WOOHOO!
One yr ago today, I went in to surgery weighing in at 407lbs. It was 5:30am and I was the first on the roster for the day. I went in with no real expectations other then to get SOME weight off and be healthy. Never in a million yrs would I have guess that I'd be sitting her 1 yr later, 212lbs lighter (from my highest weight).
What a difference a yr can make?
I'm literally half the clothing size I was on surgery day (was size 32, now size 16 and some 14's in bottoms...size L and XL T-shirts).
I can run...I had a short race with my DH last night. My DH being the athlete that he is and I actually WON!!!! U N B E L I E V E A B L E!
I can literally shop where ever I want.
I am so much more mobile then I was a yr ago.
I actually don't mind having a pic taken of me NOW.
I can cross my legs with more then enough ease.
I've lost a good amount of boobage *L*.
My DH actually called me a skinny azz *L* ( I know that I'm no real "skinny azz" but I'll take that comment. First time I've ever heard it my entire life)
My DH can pick me up...WOWZA'S.
I weigh less then my DH for the first time since I met him.
I've lost 200 block boxes of BUTTER.
I own a bicycle.
I can ride a bicycle.
I can walk 3 miles on the local track without feeling like I'm going to die.
I can do jump rope and not have my knees feel like they will buckle from under me.
I'm not the heaviest relative anymore.
I'm no longer living like a hermit...I ACTUALLY LIKE GOING OUTSIDE NOW.
These are just the tip of the Ice burg too. WHAT A LIFE!!!!!
Now of course it isn't all glitter and rainbows. So far I've had a complication free ride. But the mental roller coaster has been something left to be desired.
Overall, I now realize why I HAD to do this. I look at others, like relatives of mine who are still struggling with trying to lose weight. They have for their own reasons, chosen not to consider weight loss surgery. I can see the struggle first hand, even more then I could see it for myself while I was living it. I just felt as though with my weight reaching 418lbs, I could no longer fight this on my own. I needed a intervention...ASAP. I was more then blessed to have Dr. B oblige. I want to thank him from the bottom of my heart but don't even know how to put the words together.
I'm really sitting here in disbelief. I finally changed my avatar pic....not sure if it showed up. I did it late last night. I decided after a yr, it was time to see a new side of me *L*. I guess that is part of my celebration. Funny thing is, I want to celebrate THIS moment more then I wanted to celebrate my b-day.
I'm also more emotional today, I'm usually not an emotional person. But I'm feeling weepy as I sit and reflect on the past yr.
Photo consult, 3 mos po and 6 mos po:
Photo from my b-day, July 2nd:
KICKBALL? Me?
Jun 17, 2007
U N B E L I E V A B L E!
Yesterday, I'd say would trump all of my other wow moments!
As we are ending our week with family we decided to have a bbq. Well my cousin decided that she wanted to play kickball with all of the kids. I said that I would but then didn't go right out to do so. They played for about 10-15 mins before I decided to go outside. My cousin (she's 1 yr older then me) played and I sat on the sidelines and watched. I took this time to contemplate in my mind if I could actually play and RUN without getting tired. I did run a couple time since I've had surgery. But each time I was sooo exhausted after a short run well more of a jog *L*.
So I first started by kicking once for my son and then he was going to run the bases. He let me do it again for him but he decided that he wanted the full "kickball experience" *L*. I asked him again if I could kick for him and he wasn't having it *L*. Then I figured my daughter would let me kick just once for her...you guessed it, a resounding NO!!!!
Well after watching all of the fun I wanted to play, SO I DID!
I ran and ran and ran! I was the ONLY adult that didn't quit once started
. Uh who? That's right I said me! Wow talk about a different person with an unrecongnizable life...WOOOT! My mom was so shocked she had to take photos, she couldn't believe I was actually RUNNING!You have to remember, I was never a sports person. I've been overweight my entire life. I never wanted run and I would tire out easily. I played a bit with my brothers but I was no good at it. My cousin on the other hand was always more athletically inclined then me (the yr older cuz), she's always been MUCH smaller (weight wise) then me. She was more popular in school and a everything. We have been more like sisters, though we've grown apart as adults (we leave very different lives) we still hangout a bit. Any who being the fat one was the character that I played, always.
Yesterday was like a revenge on my own life for me. My dh told me that I wasn't running slow either
. I MADE TO HOME BASE AT LEAST 3-5 TIMES. I'm still on cloud9 as I write this *L*. I have to say finshing the kickball game for me is a better wow then even my size 16 reg from a 32w change. I THINK MY SURGEON DID AGE REVERSAL ON ME INSTEAD *L*. I feel just like a kid again...WOW!
My mom thought I would wake up in major traction this morning. But I have to tell ya, NOTHING HURTS ATTALL! Well cept' my ring finger, I think I got hit with the ball on my hand once. But other then that, I feel like I can RUN A MARATHON TODAY
Well it's Father's Day and of course I want to wish a HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all of the wonderful fathers. And especially my dh husband and coolest dad (that's what he has been named around our house anyways *L*) DAD on the planet.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY HONEY!
The love
of my life, Corporate Challenge 07':
Exercise and family comments....
Jun 16, 2007
I'm not sure if my cal intake was not suffienct enough or if my thyroid levels have gone wacky again. I will see how the next few days go and if no change in energy, I will talk with my surgeon and pcp about it.
Next issue....
As I've mentioned in my last post (re: DOUBLE CENTURY CLUB), I've been busy running around a lot this week. We have family from out of town (and some local area family too) that are visiting with us this week. The week has been fun but very, very busy. However, that is not why I'm writing about it *L*.
I'm here with the typical "family comments about weight loss post". So just a sampling of the things that I've heard...
"Hmmm, it's time for some new bras"
" It's time to give up those pants"
"You don't like you are eating enough/ you need to eat more"
Now for the most part I'm not bothered by the comments. But I'd like to know why it was when I was SMO and weighing 418lbs NO ONE HAD ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT THAT! Yep when I was on my way to deaths door, no one wanted to comment on how I needed to do something about that.
I will say that the comments about not eating enough really didn't sit well with me though. My mom made that comment and I know she didn't mean any harm when she said it. But she had the Lapband done and I had RNY, her doc didn't give her clear cut instruction on how to eat. My surgeon has a Dietician in place and I WAS given clear cut instruction on what/how to eat. I was purturbed that SHE was telling me about eating enough. I got over quickly as I expect people to make these kind of comments to me. I can tell most of my family think that I'm to getting to skinny already. So I know *if * and *when* I finally do make it to goal (145-163lbs) my family won't be able to keep their opinions to themselves.
I guess I'm saving all of my "getting angry" at them for then *L*. Because with my family, I know it will happen and *I* will be in a word battle with them over it.
Well more running to do today, I will check in again once I start my exercise back up on Monday...
Til next time...bubye!
~~~Triple C.~~~
DOUBLE CENTURY CLUB....WOOHOO!
Jun 16, 2007
Yep, I've been officially admitted to the DOUBLE CENTURY CLUB. I made it at exactly 11 mos and 2 days post op!
My journey started out at 418lbs, 1 week prior to surgery. On surgery day I weighed in at 407lbs and just like when I made it to the CENTURY CLUB, I will announce it officially when I make 200lbs down from my surgery weight.
Of course I'm still in disbelief about this but some how my excitement has been down a bit. I think I hyped myself up to much over the anticipation of it all 
. Or it could be that I'm just so tired. I' ve been running a lot this entire week. WHAT A DIFFERENCE 200LBS GONE CAN MAKE 
Any who, thought I'd post this here so that I can have the memories right here in my profile. I guess I should hunt down someone to make me a double century card now.
Bad attitude today, SI6: day 6
Jun 04, 2007
I'm feeling like I have a crappy attitude because, are you ready for this? Well it is because I didn't finish my exercise vid this morning. I woke up around 6:30a then I went back to sleep around 8a, woke back up at 10:30a or so. I proceeded to exercise and was just to tired to finish the video. I'm so disappointed in myself and I for the life of me don't know why...I've already decided to finish the video tonight. I'm hoping to have more energy to finish it.
I think it has everything to do with my perfectionist personality. Things like this is more of a learning experience then anything. Because I'm sitting here and have not had ANYthing to eat and not even had any protein coffee. I've only had a sip of some sugar free koolaide. Now ask me why I've had nothing?
I'm guessing this is one of my ways of punishing myself because I'm disappointed in myself. In layman's terms, it a way of self sabotagery (is that a word *L*). I'm trying to be more self aware and I'm trying to experiment with thinking more outside of my box when it comes to my perfectionist attitude.
I need to hear this (read this as see this in print) so I'm going to copy some of this email for my profile so that I can remember these things that I'm saying today.
I'm really feeling like a basket case, nut job for being disappointed with myself. I'm learning I have an all or nothing personality...IT DOES BACK FIRE ON YOU SOMETIMES *L*!
Exercise program update, Day 6.
Jun 03, 2007
Well here I go, yes I've missed two days of updating but I've been on my routine. I just didn't get myself in here to my profile to update it.
So moving on to the next level re: Slim in 6, turned out not as bad as I remembered it. Don't get me wrong, it was exhausting but with less weight to move around with me, it was MUCH better.
I've decided to use Sunday as my day off (the program recommends 6 days on and 1 day off). So today I scaled back and did a WATP w/water weights video. That seemed like nothing compared to SI6 *L*, so it was really refreshing to have a scaled back workout. However, I am looking forward to doing the SI6 exercises tomorrow (Monday 7/3).
I keep saying I'm going to measure and take photos but I just don't get around to it. It is like old dieting days, "I'll do it tomorrow" and then tomorrow never comes.
I'm hoping to remember tonight to both measure and take photos.
I'm also thinking I will update only once a week, unless I'm feeling the urge to chat about my regimne. We shall see how it goes...
Til next update......
Are we ever satisfied? Also a NEW exercise program...
May 31, 2007
I have battled with my inner thoughts a lot over the past almost 11 mos. While I know I have done well within my journey, I just can't even seem to appreciate fully how far I've come. I'm always so focused on my goal and where I'm trying to get to. I feel very ungrateful a lot for not appreciating and respecting my achievements thus far.
I really want to get down to 163lbs (at the least anyway but 145lbs would be the icing on the cake). However I can't help but feel that it will never happen...I know that I am in control of whether I see that number on the scale or not. My problem is I read on the boards about how some will NEVER get to their goal and I internalize these thoughts. I know that is really bad to do but thats how my mind works I guess.
Deep down inside I BELIEVE I can and will get to my goal but there is always this extra thought in the back of my mind that it won't ever happen. *Sigh* , I guess this is part of the games our minds play on us.
Next on the genda',....
I have started a new exercise program, it's called Slim in 6. It's a 6 week exercise program, it doesn't really come with a eating plan and it this point I wouldn't use it anyway. I purchased it almost 4 yrs ago and actually finished a 6 week run of it. Back then I started at 383lbs when I attempted to do this program which I bought of course because of the infomercial making it look like a "magic" solution to a better body.
My dh and I did the program and both came out of it actually heavier then when we started it. In all fairness to said program, WE DID NOT CHANGE OUR EATING HABITS. And even considering that I didn't change my eating habits, I did lose inches and could see a visible difference at the end of the 6 weeks. The program suggest taking photos weekly because you are suppose to see results on a weekly basis.
We really did enjoy doing the program but I was just plain to heavy to be doing it back then. I have had it sitting around all this time and decided to give it a spin now that I'm well over 100lbs lighter now. I'm not hoping for the "magic" that the infomercial claims possible. I'm doing the program (1) to see if I can do it with more ease this time and for a "sense of accomplishment" (2) because my exercise til now was sketchy at best and I really feel like doing a program that is more regimented will help me stay more focus. I really don't like to leave things incomplete so I will see the program to the end. And of course I'm hoping to keep things moving (weight, inches etc) with the program. I really want to be down 200lbs(from my day of surgery weight) by my 1 yr surgiversary. I have about 20lbs to go and 6 weeks left to do it in. I know it is a stretch but I'd also be happy if I can be down 200lbs from my pre-op weight as well. That'd be about a 9lbs loss, obviously I'd be happy with WHATEVAH I get too *L*.
So far I'm on day 3 and things are going great with the program. I notice so much of a difference in doing it now then when I was 383lbs.
Tomorrow I move on to the next part of the program which is RAMP IT UP. It begins with START IT UP..this part focus mostly on learning the moves and getting aquainted with the exercises. RAMP IT UP is a bit tougher but I'm going into this with gusto. I KNOW I can do it. I plan to keep myself going by blogging about it daily. This will probably be tougher then doing the program for me *L*. Not sure why I don't blog more but guess I will be blogging more now. This will help lots with my accountability too.
Well wish me luck....I fear I might need it. WHY? Because the last video in the series is called...BURN IT UP! And from what I remember, it lives up to its name *L*.
Wows and reflections....
May 29, 2007
I've been reflecting about how I've really not been good at blogging on my profile. I realize that at some point I will need to come back for uplifting moments or "kick in the butt" moments.
Well I've really been overflowing with wows but just didn't come here to talk about it. Luckily I share some with my good friend Patty that I met here on OH and I still have the emails that I can go back to. I will likely some day try and post them here to my profile...but who knows when.
On to the Wows....
Yesterday I actually left my house in a size 14 pants. Now I'm not going to claim that size just yet as I believe that these pants may be bigger then most size 14. Also because I'm just transitioning into a WALMART size reg 16. I've been trying to figure out my size via measurements and from what I can tell my measurement coincide with a size reg 18. I've been able to figure out that the only difference in a 16W and a reg size 16 is about 1/2 an inch. But from what I can tell, that 1/2 inch does make a difference.
So to recap I was able to wear a size 14 reg outside comfortably but I'm just transitioning into a size reg 16 and can definitely fit into a W16.
Ah very confusing but thats what I've figured so far.
I also bought a pair of XL capri nylon pants....CAN'T BELIEVE IT IS REALLY ME SHOPPING IN THE NORMAL (MISSES) SECTION OF THE STORE. These pants actually fit too. I also purchased a shirt from WALMART in a reg size XL well..... I HAD TO RETURN IT BECAUSE IT WAS A BIT BIG....WHAT ME TAKING BACK A XL SHIRT BECAUSE IT WAS BIG....U-N-B-E-L-I-E-V-A-B-L-E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I remember being on my way to 9th grade and having to shop for size W 24. I really gained alot of weight that summer and now reflecting back I realize that I was going through some depression and didn't know how to deal with it. Everyone was out of the house working except me. My mom was gone my cousin that was just one yr older then me was finally old enough to get a summer job and I was sad and all alone. So I ate, ate and ate some more....I was sneaking food and everything. I'm now convinced that I was bulimic (sp) but due to the way that I grew up, things like that wasn't discussed in our house.
Any who enough of that for now....more WOWs...
Before I had WLS I couldn't even get my ring finger into a size 12 ring. Well drum roll please...........................................
I bought a size 9 yesterday and I am wearing it as I type this. It isn't a real metal but I didn't care because it is a size 9! I know to most this isn't a realy achievement because after all a size 9 is still big to most, considering most women before WL is a size 9. Well if you are me and have always been the big feet and big hands girl, YOU ARE EXCITED!
See I could not even get a wedding ring when I got married because my hands were an abnormal size 11. We didn't have a lot of money and there was no way my soon to be dh, a college student at the time, could afford to get a ring in a size 11. I actually told him I didn't want one because I knew it would be hard to find one, he wanted to get me one but I wouldn't let him. Now I'm sitting her waiting for my goal weight so that I can finally get the wedding ring I deserve. I told my dh he'd better start saving his pennies now because after 14 yrs (I've been with him 14 yrs this Aug. We have been married for 13yrs) I want a rock as big as his HEAD *L*. I know that will likely not happen cuz I'm not really into large stones but I definitely want my wedding ring!
I really do feel like I'm in a magical phase in life right now. I just wonder when the dream will be over and I will be back to my "all I've known overweight self". I know that only I have control over that ( provided I have to mechanical issues) but it will take my head a while to catch up to all that is going on.
I've had so much happen to me in the past almost 11 mos. I can't believe I've made it this far........
~~~~Life is Grand~~~~
10 mos post op
May 21, 2007
I have never honestly known a life where I wasn't obese. I saw pics of me when I was about 14yrs where I was considered "small" but I have always looked smaller then my actual weight. No nurse have ever place the scale in the right number range because I hid my weight so well.
Even now my mom says I don't look what I weigh at this point. I feel like I've had a taste of a thinner life and I don't ever want to lose that feeling again. I also have fears that I will all of the sudden wake up back where I started when I eat things that I would not normally eat or feel that I should be eating.
Any who on to the good stuff *L*.
10 mos later my stats:
My highest BMI (1 week prior to surgery) 63.5
BMI on surgery day: 61.5
BMI today (5/21/07): 34.9
Clothing size at my highest and surgery day:
Tops: 4-5X
Now (5/21/07): Large
Bottoms: 30-32 (tight)
Now (5/21/07): 18W, 18 regs depends on where I shop
I can cross my legs with ease. I've not been able to do that my whole entire life. I could cross them when I lost 80lbs but never with ease. I can feel all of my bones just about and my DH loves to feel them also *L*.
Just this past weekend I went to a local amusement park, Worlds of Fun and I was able to ride everything that I'd tried. IT WAS THE BEST TIME I'VE HAD IN A LOOOOONNNNNGGGGGG TIME. Before we went I told my kiddos that I would ride, rides until I puked *L*. As this is the first time that I have gone to an amusement park and have not had to wonder if I could fit into this ride or that ride. I felt like the kid this time *L*. My kids had been wanting to go to WOF for weeks, it's all they could talk about. Well we get there and they CHICKENED OUT!
Me and My DH rode some of the toughest rides at the park and we had a ball!
I guess that is all for this update.....
Till next time,
~~~Love, Joy and Happiness for all!~~~
OMG!!!!!!!!....WOW'S!
Feb 20, 2007
I AM NOW JUST O-B-E-S-E!!!!!!!!!!! Amazing how being “just obese”, can make one sooooo happy. My BMI today sits @ 39.5 (from 63.5)…I had just been plugging along and didn’t even notice I was close to being *OBESE*. A WOW moment at its finest…WOOT! I’m so excited and feel like this is a dream that I will wake up from.
My updated stats:
From:
I cannot believe my eyes…wowza, wowza, wowza.
Also another WOW to share, I went to the store yesterday and figured I’d try on some clothes since I just went to the store about 2 weeks ago and the clothes I bought 2 weeks ago are big now, they are size 22’s. So I figured I could probably get a size 20 and DREAM that they would fit. Well the 20’s fit and I was able to purchase a size 18 because they fit also…WOOHOO! The 18’s are stretchy jeans but size 18’s nonetheless. I haven’t worn a size 18 since I met my DH.
Top: 4-5X
Bottom: 30’s and 32’s
To: Weight loss:
Tops: 1x
Bottoms 18’s and 20’s
-147 since surgery
-158 since 1 week before surgery
This much progress and it has only been 7 mos. and 7 days. This truly is like a dream and I’m afraid I will wake up and someone will take all of this away. It’s even hard for me to celebrate my progress thus far…it all happened soooooo quick.
~~~Triple C. ~~~
