Today is the 1st day of the rest of your life...

Aug 01, 2011

This is what I wrote on my FB status.  "Just reminding everyone that today is not only August 1st, but if you are struggling or whatevering today is also the first day of the rest of your life. You can effect a change in your life starting today, right now in this moment. Manifest your destiny...make a change.."

It's been just over a month since I came on the boards with my revalations and putting the scale down for the last 2 weeks because NO matter how good I was doing on the eating that mother fucker just wasn't moving.  Well today I weighed in and you guessed it NOPE it wasn't down...the mother fucker is just NOT moving.  I am BEYOND frustrated, BUT I had to STOP and take a realist look at ME and MY journey...

I am smaller then I was in 1984
From my highest I weigh 125lbs less then I did in 1995
From the date I started looking into WLS I weigh 105lbs less then I did in 2006
From my surgery date I weigh 85lbs less then I did 11/26/2007
I am 10lbs UNDER the goal weights I always invisioned as my "ideal" weight BEFORE I had WLS
I am the EXACT size I always "wanted" to be

These revelations STOPPED me dead in my tracks...I had been so focused on "regaining" that I hadn't really stopped and looked at MY truths.  I've come so far and while I have more that I want to lose, but I can't get so wrapped up that I lose sight of the bigger picture...today is the first day of the rest of my life.

So what does this moment in life mean, to me?  It means I'm going to FOCUS on the things that I can control.

I CAN control the scale STOPPING it's upward climb (already have)
I CAN control how MUCH I eat
I CAN control how OFTEN I eat
I CAN control WHAT I choose to eat
I CAN control WHY I choose to eat
I CAN control my EXERCISE
I CAN control how OFTEN I exercise

This is me for now...not accepting defeat but accepting the things within my control.

Ms Shell

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