Accepting

Apr 28, 2009

I am having to accept that I was overweight ENOUGH that I needed weight loss surgery....I have been in denial about HOW BIG I was.  My heaviest point was 249, and I am 5' 2".  I lost 8 pounds before surgery.  (249-8 to 241)  My surgery was on April 15th - 2 weeks tomorrow and I am hitting the scales around 230.  WOW!!!  I have lost about 11 pounds in 13 days...on 4/16 when I was released from the hospital I went by the doctors office to pick up more of their chocolate shakes - I like them better then anything else I have tried and I weighed  on their scales and I weighed 243 ( I assume the 2 pounds more because I was swollen!!!) So, actaully I have lost 13 pounds in 13 days.  That motivates me to want to exercise.

I am also feeling better that I finally was able to talk to my manager at work and she was not angry that I am out..I did not know about life after surgery, I am little upset with my doctors office did prepare me more for the PAIN, tiredness after surgery...anyways....in my mind I am ready to go back to work, but realistic my physical strength is about 60 percent and I have my nights and days switched.  If I do alot one day then the next I want to sleep & lay around all day.  To try to correct my days and nights (did not fall asleep to after 1 am last night) I am staying awake right now!  I have been taking my girls to school in the morning and then coming home and going back to bed.  From surgery until this past weekend I was sleeping all day and all night...I have never done that, but I have to get back on schedule in preparation to go back to work. 

I also need to finish up school...I need to take a map location test this week, and next week I have finals... only 2 test, I am ready for the American Lit test, but I have to study for the history test.  After these test, I will be completed at the community college and this fall I will be starting the college that is closer to home. YA!!!

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