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I have not wrote in forever...sorry I have became addicted to facebook.  as of today July 22nd I weigh 201, my heighest weight was March 27 at 249. I received my 2nd band fill last week, AND I got sick for the first time......I am back to eating very little.  I am going to have to STOP eating when I am cooking or fixing my plate, because by the time I sit down I am full! Also, going out to eat is a waste of time to me right now....I had not thrown up or spit up at all before last week,  and I have had 3 SESSIONS of being SICK!  I think I am going back to the pureed, lol.  I feel hungry now...I threw up supper, taco salad without the taco, but I had ate a few (3) bites of cheese while I was putting the tacos together!  I just drunk 20 ounces of water trying to curb the hunger, it is not working.  I think I am going to have a LITTLE chicken salad.

I have been exercising pretty well, sometime I go to the YMCA, I love the epilitical.  I have also been walking with my cousin Marica, it is convient she lives right next door, I can take my daughter with me, and we walk up Up UP my aunt Jackie's very steep drive and back down, I am up to 3 time, which makes a full mile....I am sweaty by the first half of the first time up!!!

I am going to start posting more, my goal is once a week.  I have alot of STRESS in my life right now.  I have transfer to a new college, my husband is leaving with the military to go out of the country, my step daughter who lived with us for the last 6 months has gone back to her moms (8 hours away) she has already got in trouble and I wonder if she will be sent back, my dad and step mom are having legal issues...work is crazy hard, and I have got tooooo many projects going on (I am often guilty of that....Ester Bible study, GA sleepover, GA day camp, 31 bag party, jewelry party, going back to disney, and I need to order my books for this fall)  I love it, but I am feeling overwhelmed!

Yesterday was my 32 birthday...life is good.  I have lost from 249 to 216. Life has been busy, I have been exercising, I still have back problems.  I went for a MRI yesterday...it was awful, my back REALLY hurt after it was over, I thought I was going to freak out in that tube, AHHHHH! I had to be in there over an hour! 

I think I spelled that correctly.  I have been exercising, watching what I eat, but I did start my monthly!  I keep floating between 225 & 229.  I get my first fill in 2 days, I hope that helps.

I went to the YMCA this morning...I was only able to stay for about 25 minutes, so Jen and I went back this afternoon,  my left foot still hurts when I walk....I can't handle the tread mill but I can do the exercise bike.  I was very proud of Jen, I have never seen her exercise so hard, it excited her and she wants to go back. 

Kiley and I walked for 20 minutes this afternoon...then I sat at the ballfied for almost 3 hours, but I did it.  We made the loop, I was tired, but it was a good start.  I want to go to the Y in the morning.  I really want to lose the weight forever....I don't want to have health problems, and body pains, and not be able to keep up with Kiley, and I don't want to be fat!  I want to feel confident about what I look like and I want to wear cute clothes.  I am hungry.  I have been trying to drink more water every time I feel hungry.  I am afraid that the weight loss place will expect me to have lost more when I go in next week to get my first fill.  I try to remember it has only been 22 days since my surgery date and I have lost around 24 pounds.  Sometimes I weigh 224, then the next day it may be 227 or close to 230.  I am starting to eat, but I am logging it.  I want to take Kiley to walk more often, I would love to get to 4 times a week.  I have not thought about it in years but I want to get to were I can run, maybe someday even in a marathon or to be able to hike in the mountains and camp out.

The ugliest part of my body is my stomach, when I was 9 months pregnant with Kiley, I was a passenger in a car accident.  Were the seat belt went across my stomach I bruised really, really bad.  It looked like a leather bet about 3 inches wide across my full term pregnant belly.  My stretch marks busted,  It caused me to have horizontal stretch marks in the verticle scretch marks I had from pregnancy. then when Kiley was born I had to have an emergency c section, full cut.  I also have to be responsible, I have not been good to my body...I like to cook, eat, entertain, make special treats, go out to eat....right now it is also a few days before my period and I am craving sweets...brownies.   I have been good there is stuff in my home for my family that would be bad for me to eat!!! chips & debbie cakes.  Tonight at the ball field the grease smell made me nauses...I can't stand that smell, my daughter Jennifer said it smell like funnel cake,  it smelled gross to me.  To the point it left a bad taste in my mouth. anyway back to the belly, I found out the best exercise to target that area is reverse crutches...I am going to do some!

The weight is coming off slower....it is my fault, I had quit logging what I was eating and drinking,  I did not eat anything BAD, but I did have a few carbs.  I have heard horror stories about people getting sick,  I have not thrown up, but one day I did feel really nauses smelling my daughter Jennifer's Wendy's fries.  I have always been sensitive to smell, more so now.  I could smell the grease, uk!   I also have not started exercising like I want to get too.  I have been getting up and moving more, walking around my yard, and using 3 pound hand weights....I want to tighten up my arms...I try to remember the surgery was only 3 weeks yesterday.  I am still kind of tired.  Plus, my husband had to spend the day in the ER (high blood pressure) stressed me out.  He has always been the healthy one, we have to find out what 's going on with him....I didn't stress eat, wanted to, but didn't.  I am also in college finals, I need to be studying right now, I take my last test today! YA!  Then, I will be done until this fall.  I have been  attending a community college part time for the last  4 years, and I get to move on to a 4 year college to finish my degree this FALL, finally, I  choose it that way, because I still work, and the community college was alot cheaper.

I go back to work Monday, I am looking forward to getting back to normal.  I am thankful I will have classes done, that way by the end of the day I can come home and rest if I need to.  The following week my coworker is on vacation, and it will just be me.  I will get to work extra hours which will be extra cash for vacation...going in 36 days.  My baby girl thinks we are going just to the beach, but we are also going to Disney, she has never been.  If it wan't for the fact Disney has an AWESOME military special we would not be able to go.  I am excited about being able to take our girls!  But, I am nervous about pulling a long week, 5 weeks out from surgery.  Our church is going on a mission trip the Sunday before and I am NOT going, becasue I think I should rest!!! My husband was shock that I said No. lol

I have to be in Athens tomorrow morning...I plan on going to the gym after my appointment.  Then, look over my notes for American Lit class and take a nap before going to get the girls.  I also want to pick up a small food scale.  I want to lose the weight.  I want to be healthy.  I want to exersice.  I don't know what my ideal weight is.  I know ideally I suppose to weigh 138.  I think I would be content being an 8 or 10.  I having been eating, it does not take much to feel me up.

My appointment went great. I weigh 227.  I did not know that I would lose weight so fast.  We also set the appointment to have my band fill on May 13th.  They did suggest for me to take half a Tylenol PM for the next few nights...they said eventually I would be able to sleep on my stomach again.  I am feeling better everyday.  I get to go back to work on May 11th.  I am ready to go back to work mentally now, but my body can't keep up.  I am worn out this afternoon from going today.

I am having to accept that I was overweight ENOUGH that I needed weight loss surgery....I have been in denial about HOW BIG I was.  My heaviest point was 249, and I am 5' 2".  I lost 8 pounds before surgery.  (249-8 to 241)  My surgery was on April 15th - 2 weeks tomorrow and I am hitting the scales around 230.  WOW!!!  I have lost about 11 pounds in 13 days...on 4/16 when I was released from the hospital I went by the doctors office to pick up more of their chocolate shakes - I like them better then anything else I have tried and I weighed  on their scales and I weighed 243 ( I assume the 2 pounds more because I was swollen!!!) So, actaully I have lost 13 pounds in 13 days.  That motivates me to want to exercise.

I am also feeling better that I finally was able to talk to my manager at work and she was not angry that I am out..I did not know about life after surgery, I am little upset with my doctors office did prepare me more for the PAIN, tiredness after surgery...anyways....in my mind I am ready to go back to work, but realistic my physical strength is about 60 percent and I have my nights and days switched.  If I do alot one day then the next I want to sleep & lay around all day.  To try to correct my days and nights (did not fall asleep to after 1 am last night) I am staying awake right now!  I have been taking my girls to school in the morning and then coming home and going back to bed.  From surgery until this past weekend I was sleeping all day and all night...I have never done that, but I have to get back on schedule in preparation to go back to work. 

I also need to finish up school...I need to take a map location test this week, and next week I have finals... only 2 test, I am ready for the American Lit test, but I have to study for the history test.  After these test, I will be completed at the community college and this fall I will be starting the college that is closer to home. YA!!!

I am ready to move on to the next stage....yesterday was the busiest day I have since surgery, nanny took me to the Historic Home tour, then Eddie and I went to the grocery store, then we went to Kileys game.  All of yesterdays running effected today, I am disappointed that I did not get up and go today, I did not leave the house.  I feel better this evening.  I want to get back to my life, and I am excited about worling on my new body.  I am ready to go to the gym....I can't run a marathon yet, but I think I am going to get my hand weights, do some leg lifts, and drink some water....be back!

I got up drunk a bottle of water, took RX, printed off some stuff I needed, found my hand weights, got off the couch & did some curls???  some marching in place, I moved ok....hey I would not be typing on this site if I was familiar with exercising.  I also ate some peanut butter, I had forgot it was on the OK list,  I love pb and it is a great source of protein.  I have not been getting all my protein in....I know shame on me, I have also got to get better at taking my vitamins....they leave an awful taste in my mouth...maybe I will start taking the multi vitamin & my B12 with the peanut butter.

Tomorrow I am going to call and find out if I get my first fill this Wednesday,  I also need to go to the bank & the postoffice.  I also want to talk to my boss tomorrow.  I want to set the goal of going back to work on May 7th, that will be 3 weeks after surgery.