N0Smiles
Venting
Nov 18, 2011
As most know here I had my referral sent in April of this year and weight 309,well last week I weighed 314,today I now weigh 330..Is that possible for one person to gain 16 pounds in a week??
I have been doing everything I thought was right,journaling;not just the meals but how much of what I am eating as well,portion control,reading nutrional values..I am crushed literally..I have been using fitday and lowered my calorie intake from 2000 to 1500 a day..Yes I am eating the right things more protein,veggies then the carbs and very little of those..
I feel like I am an awful personI know when I was thinner I was not a nice person to someone like me making fun of their weight and believe this is my payback to be a fatty forever..I am trying so hard to not give into my depression of this weight gain and stuff my face,give up on the surgery..Instead Iam here venting in my blog crying feeling sorry for myself;so I can overcome it and do better..
I cannot allow myself to gain anymore weight I wont be allowed the surgery according to the nurse,where as I will be spending more time with dietican and nutrionist..
I have no where to go and it just hurts to be where I want to be and cant..It hurts to be able to taste happiness to have it taken back!!
