nuyvon79
My story is pretty much the same as many of the people on this site. I've struggled with my weight and my identity because of it since I was a child. I remember being 7 years old on a diet. Mom would cook fried chicken, greens, mac n cheese for the rest of the family and serve me oatmeal and boiled chicken. Out of a family of five I was the only chunky one. Fast forward a few years into puberty and my teens, I really got into sports, mainly basketball. I was a really good athlete and even though I was heavier, I was healthy and solid, yet still felt fat and unworthy. I always felt like being overweight was an excuse for me not to succeed. My high school weight was 180lbs, I looked really good and was healthy at that weight, even though I had low self esteem and thought I was fat. After high school, the freshman 15 became more like the freshman 50. Over the years, until now I put on another 50 lbs. Stress, relationship problems, family problems, whatever I wish to blame it on is really not to blame. The blame is on me not taking care of myself and not feeling worthy that I deserve better. In my late 20's at around 250 to 260, I began to embrace myself and love my curves. Even though I was big, I carried my weight well, mainly in my hips, butt, and thighs. However, settling into these dirty thirties, the weight is doing what it wants to do. Its not as easy to get off as it used to be. Before i could just think of dieting and drop 10lbs, but not so much now. So now, at my highest weight, I am finally taking the plunge to help with this life long battle. I don't want to miss this opportunity. My primary goal is to lose 100 lbs and reach my high school wieght of 180. The main reason for me having surgery is to permenantly help me with this issue. Because, I am worthy. I can suceed at what ever it is I want to, and I will no longer allow myself to hold me back.
