nuyvon79
Time really does Fly! Almost at 3 months update.
Jul 27, 2011
Omg, I can't believe next week will make 3 freakin months. Really. I'm sorry I haven't been on in a while or responded to messages. After a while I was tired of some of the negativety on OH. I know that everyone is not like that but some people are just so self righteous and rude and I am the type of person who draws in all energy both good and bad so I just stopped lurking and going on the boards for awhile. But I realize that people are just people and who cares about their negativity and I've met very cool peeps on here. I have also been BUSY.. I got another job so I am working two jobs about 70 hours a week (We are trying to buy a house so saving all we can for a down payment) I have also started school online full time. So anytime that I am online, I am usually doing work for school. I ain't no spring chicken no nore and I can feel it because it is not easy but I am working toward my goals.So life is really " back to normal" so to speak. When you are really early out you want to track every second of every day because this is such a life change, but things get back to normal and you really do adjust to your new way of life and new way of eating. Right now I currently weigh 237. Started out at 280. A total for 43lbs lost. I think I could have been a lot further along maybe 7 or 8 more lbs but...I have been doing some no no's and I'll go over that in a bit. But still, I'm happy with 43lbs, maybe I will be down at least 2 more lbs by next week. That being said, Yes I can fit in some of my old clothes, some of my clothes are hanging off of me and I feel lighter, but when I look at myself in the mirror, I still see who I was 3 months ago. I still don't feel smaller or skinnier by any means. I am wondering how much weight do I have to lose to feel like I've really lost and look like it to myself. I think when I have to go out and buy a whole new wardrobe I will finally be able to tell. I am still wearing a lot of my older clothes, they are getting looser everytime I wear them but I can still wear them and I think that is what makes me feel like I still look the same.
I can say this... I do literally feel lighter and feel like I take up less space. When you are heavy, that is exactly how you feel....heavy and you feel like you take up space. But now that I've lost I feel different in how I relate to things and people around me. Like the other day, I was standing next to my babe in the kitchen and I felt like he was towering over me. It was weird. I said...did i get shorter or did you get taller, but I realize it is because I am smaller now, so how I relate to space is different...does that make sense. It really is weird.
The majority of my weight is coming from my thighs. I can also see where my face is really skinny now along with my shoulders. I am really happy with the progress so far, even though like I said I can't see it for real. My co-workers comment and say every day I walk in I look smaller and smaller. And it is like literally when I walk in the door everyone stares me up and down. At first I didn't like feeling like a side show or circus act, but it is human nature for people to do that and I don't care anymore. But they say good things about how good I look, so it does help me feel better. Also, I need to post pics. I have been taking picutres all along, and have some before's. Pictures really do help. I took a pic the other day and I looked at it and I was like...is that Really how I look because that is not what I see. My waist is so itty bitty now and my face is so skinny. It's funny how your brain works that way. So make sure you take pics to track your progress because if you are like me, you may look in the mirror and get a little down because you don't see progress but pictures do not lie.
My no's no's
-haven't been working out...at all. I do realize that I just don't like to work out. it is not something I enjoy therefore I don't like. I wish I had a different mind set but I don't. But I am working on that. I do feel lighter and more energetic. Can climb the stairs without passing out. I need to use this energy to burn more calories. I am working on that.
-I've been eating sugar, not alot but some. such as 1 tablespoon in my coffee or regular gatorade. I don't go overboard though. I tried a piece of chocolate and it just isn't the same, it's like it's not even worth it. It doesn't have the same effect on you and enjoyment like it did before so it's not even worth trying. I do believe if I completely cut out sugar I would have lost more weight.
-I've tried things that I shouldn't have- example, potatoe chips unfortanely go down really easy. This far out, I think you are pretty much healed and can eat just about anything. But yeah, I can eat a whole bag of snack size chips and that scared me the other day. I told myself, even though it goes down easy and I can have it...I best stay away from them until maintenance at least.
-still not drinking enough water. When I say water I mean pure water, I have been drinking alot of light Cranberry and apple juice, plus gatorade and my protein drink. But I do need to get in more water I know.
Like I said, eating feels alot more like normal now. When you are first out it is hard because, well we all live in the now and that is what matters, what I can or can't do right now at this moment in time. It feels like you will never eat food again while your on liquids...but it is only a phase and you have to realize you will eat again, but you need to heal really well first. I can eat pretty much anything. I do mainly eat protein and veggies but I will have a bite of carb here and there. For instance, my honey brought pizza and wings at first I was like, now why would he do that. But I realize that the way I eat now is differenlty. There is now way I could scarf down 3 slices and wings so just savor a small bite. I ate literally one bite of pizza...and 2 wings, and was done and thoroughly satisfied. When I cook a meal such as baked chicken rice and green beans. I will eat the chicken and green beans. The rice just feels like a waste of time. So I am glad to report that I can eat just about anything but the good thing is I only want the good stuff. My body and my brain has gotten used to this and I the full signal is clear both mental and physically.
Also, didn't believe that vsgers can dump but experienced it first hand. It was on fourth of July. I hate half hot dog(no bun) dipped in mustard, a bites of watermelon and was full. All they had to drink was sugary drinks. I don't know what kind of punch it was put I drunk it and boy was it sweet. But I drunk it down, getting lost in good time and coversation. 30 minutes later...I told my honey we had to leave IMMEDIATELY. I got really dizzy and hot and light headed. As soon I got home I hit the bathroom with alot of diarreah. It was a horrible feeling. So I do try to limit sugar. Lesson learned, always be prepared. I keep packets of crystal light with me in my purse now.
I am a little scared. I know there is a possiblity of gall bladder disease after bariatric surgery. I have feeling this dull pain or uncomfortable feeling in my abdomen to the right under my rib cage. I googled it and it appears that is where the gall bladder is. It feel like something is pulling and slight pain, I've never felt it before. I hope to God it isn't my gall bladder. I have been taking the gall bladder medicine so I'm hoping is something that will just go away. My 3 month follow up is in a few days so we will see.
So I am nearly half way to goal at 3 months out. I hope to be at goal by the end of the year. I have noticed a pattern. It seems I will lose then hold at a certain weight then lose. For instance, I was 248 for like a week. Then get on the scale and I'm 244. Then hold there for like a week. Then it will drop another 3 pounds. All last week I was at 241, Then Yesterday was at 238 and today 237 but I probably will go back up to 238 and stay there for a week before going down again. So what I have learned is to be patient and not get stuck on what the scale says. I think the scale just needs time to catch up with what your body is doing. Or you body may be losing and burning fat in increments instead of steadily. I think it just depends on the person.
I will up date with pic soon. See you guys later.
