prettyinpink766
Hello, well you already know my name so ill start with my story. Im 31, i have 6 children, Im single now (have been a lil over a year) I was overweight during the 10 yr relationship and even before that. I can remember weighing in at 181 in gym class and I was 13yrs old, I wanted to die. I always carried pretty good, never looking the actual weight that I was. As I started having children, that started to change. I have struggled with weight, tried every diet, had my doctor try some of everything and nothing seems to work. Like now, last year I weighed in at 325, I managed to take off the 25 plbs, but now cant seem to get passed the 300mark. I stay between 300 and 310. It is so fustrating, I dont know what im doing wrong. I sometimes fall of the wagon, but only a little, doesnt matter tho, because I cant get pass the 300. I am so tired of being over weight. My two younger sons 7 and 6 want me to play catch with them, and i cant. My daughter wants me to lay down in the grass with her, or sit in the grass indian style and I cant because my legs can barely fold, and it will be hell trying to get up. I get up like an old woman, I limp, because my hip joint hurts like hell. I hate looking in the mirror, but found that it helps me watch what I eat. Makes me think "Sh*&, who would want someone like you anyway". My arms are fat, one more fatter and flabbier than the other. I hate it, cause I can never wear short sleeves shirts. I am self contieous about everything I put on. Im tired of living like this and i am not asking for magic, I have researched this procedure 2yrs now and feel like im ready to make the commitment. I know that there are so many things that I cant have anymore, and less than half of what I can have, but It is worth it to me if it will give me a chance to go swimming, learning how to skate, riding a bike, water skiing, just enjoying Gods green earth. Thats all I want. I am working, but dont really have insurance thru my job, they offered aflac, but only for those that work ft and not pt. I have medicaid Total Health and dont know if they cover, I hear they do, so im giving it a shot. My doctor wants me to do it,he thinks its a good Idea, so im going to trust his instincts and take my chances. People say it can kill me, I feel like if I dont do it, my weight will kill me anyway..
