Hoping I hate FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jun 18, 2011

I do. I hope that I hate the taste of food. Besides me physically and mentally preparing myself for whats to come, good and bad, I never want to feel the way i have about food, ever ever again. I know and understand that this will be a process. There will be good days and bad days. There will be ups and downs, but the reaping of the reward is priceless. I want to be able to slip on a pair of skates and go skating with my daughters, run after my 2 yr old, run and roll in the grass and play catch with my sons. Go for walks, see what its like to go and do things that my weight has held me back from. I want to feel good. I used to say "Dang, if only I was smaller,I wouldn't mind excercising cause I could keep up" It would hurt so bad once I started and sometimes it just felt pointless. I want to know what it feels like to walk in a room and be stared at because of those bad azz shoes im wearing or that killa outfit is hugging in all the right places and my selfesteem is thu the roof! No I never want to "love" food again. I want to be interested in other things in life that I never knew existed. I never want to eat because im stressed, I never want another "comfort" bite of anything. I want to wake without headaches, back aches..body aches period. I want to look forward to the summer months and bright sunny days where no jacket is needed. I want to look forward to going to work outside of the house again instead of at home. All these things and so much more I want and will have shortly, all because God has granted a desire of mine that Ive had for a long time and Im ready now.  I thank him for that, I thank him for the patience he's had with me and the patience he has taught me to have. I have a long road ahead of me, but I am ready to get started with one step at a time. Im ready.

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