Shall we say "struggling"?!?!?!?

Aug 29, 2009

It seems like every since I had my 6-month visit with Dr. Macik last month (July 24th), I have been struggling to stay on track.  I had lost 80 pounds at that point which was about 20-25 pounds less than what Macik had anticipated.  Of course I got the standard questions of "what are you doing/eating," "are you exercising," etc....  I am doing everyhing right - or at least up until that point I was.  I was exercising diligently, eating my protein, taking my vitamins, drinking my fluids, etc....  I too was disappointed that the weight loss wasn't better, but how do you convince someone that you are following all the rules when the evidence suggest otherwise?  Anywho... every since then, I have been in a funk and seem to have abandoned all the good behaviors that I was learning.  I have started eating junk again (on top of the protein).  I still get my fluids and vitamins in and I am still exercising; however, I have learned that I can tolerate absolutely anything that I put in my  mouth.  It is safe to say that I do NOT dump and my pouch is NOT sensitive.  I don't have to chew food to mush and it goes down easily.  I can gulp down fluids with the best of them.  Did I even have surgery?!?!?

I realize that I am now 7 months into it and if I am going to take advantage of the rest of my window of opportunity, I must get back on track now.  If not, all hope is gone.  I know I can do this; I just have to get off of the pity pot and look at how much I did lose rather than how much I did not lose.  I should not matter what my surgeon thinks; what matters is what I know to be true.  I should not hand that much power over to anyone.  I am now down about 85 pounds since surgery (yep, only 5 pounds last month), but I know I can really get the scale moving again.  If any of my OH friends reads this entry, please keep me in your prayers.

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