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I havent been here in a while . I am down to 250 now . I am so happy . Things are getting easier . I am still having chronic pain though . I have a pinched nerve or something going on in my leg. Eating is deffinetly different now and things that i thought food wise were a good choice really were not . It is exciting to be wearing smaller clothes . sexy clothes are an option now. I am able to walk and i am too chicken yet but i have been thinking about running. 

   I am still thinking about having skin removal but i am not sure . I heard it hurts worse than having a baby ... well this is all for now .

I can't believe it ! My husband and I had our Gastric sleeve on August 26 th after all the time and years i have waited .

  This has been a huge life changing thing for me i used to sleep almost all day stay up all night . I was on so many narcotics . I was just so sick . Then my husband met our surgeon to have hernia surgery done he talked to him about having surgery for weight loss  thank God he had it done and I had mine also.

  Things now are so much easier for me  I revert back once in a while to what i was doing before but i do get my head out of my backside and do what i am supposed to be doing  .

     I got on the scale the other day and I am out of the 300s i am so so happy i am so glad  that i have done this i will never let myself get out of control again .

The begining of my journey actually started 7 yrs ago i tried to get the surgery done but the dr i had felt my bipolar would interfere with the surgery leaving me not able to absorb my meds . I can switch my insurance in march till then i can do nothing about the surgery but watch my food intake and hope i dont get bigger  i am having alot of issues with walking now due to having a knee replaced a yr and half ago and they are talking about doing the other knee. i dont think i want it if i am not able to walk good i think that will set me back and make me not want to move due to pain .

     Today was a good day today my husband Ray went to the bariatric dr and he is going to start his jorney to the gastric sleeve this is the pocedure i am also having . i am excited for him and the dr was very good the staff was very pleasant and understanding of his needs  they are very attentive and compassionate . we are both going to be doing this together esicantally because he cant have his done for about 5 months so we will be in our boat together keeping it from rocking and having one fall out . which is good because he is relying on my support and now i have his . i dont know what it will be like to be out of 4 x clothing i cant wait till i have to shop for smaller clothing . i am eating a nectarine i hope i can have fruit when i have this surgery  because i love fruit . but this is going to end my day  i will be back tomorrow with my information about my day .

 Well i didnt know how long  it had been since i blogged last  when i was reading this i found out and i cant believe its been so long here i sit at 386 still and  i have no where to go i am looking for a surgeon again the first one turned me down due to me being bipolar and he was thinking about me not being able to keep my medicine in me .  So  here i am looking again for someone this journey of carring weight is a long and tedious one  you cant bend you cant walk too far   i  have had enough of not having the life i am supposed to have .

 I am sitting here asking myself why its been 3 yrs since i have been here  , my sister-in-law  is looking into having the gastric bypass, i have shared with her some of my experience in my testing that i have gone thru right up to the last appointment only to be told that i cant have the surgery  , there is another surgeon here in town that may be willing to do the surgery but i have to make the life changes first i have to become more active who am i kidding i have to become active i am to a degree i mean i am not just sitting on a couch all day but i need to get on a type of life style that i know its forever .
      then i have to learn to say no to sweets  its very hard as i have a love for sweets i am going to have to just look at them and think about my arterys or think about my grandchildren and then wonder what is more important
          i keep telling her that she is going to be on suplements for the rest of her life and i think she believes that with her insurance from medicaid she will get them that way i told her no she needs good things  and vitamin b shots the rest of her life .
 she really needs to research like i am doing . i am going to start again and try non surgical and see where i get .

wow i cant believe its been so long since i have been here   alot has gone on  i have decided at this point and time that i am not going to have the surgery  as my surgeon didnt want complications due to me being bipolar which i understand  
  i  went to my primary dr about 5 months ago and asked him for a weight loss medication he  gave me meridia and it is working along with diet changes and lifestyle changes as well as mental changes  
   To date i have lost 50 pounds  i am so excited i now have a bike and i am out riding it almost all the time i am happy that this is working for me  this is a good time to be alive

well here i am july 16 2007  getting the run around one more time  i have been in pain managment for the last yr and a half and i have developed pain in my neck now  , i already had a bad injury there from an auto accident 12 yrs ago since i had a mri done on the neck the pain dr says that is will not be able to give me anymore treatments he has found out that i have a bulging disc and it pushing against my spinal cord  and he stated that i can not be treated unless  i  loose weight 
 
     wow why didnt i have that idea first i am sure i would have saved him alot of agervation thinking  anyway i do not feel it is his feeling toward me  , it is in fact his nurses attitude toward me as i am a obese person  she was angry that i had not had a iv started  and she actually had to work for her money and find my vein   
 she stated that i had too many fat deposits so she couldnt get my vein  and she was very ugly about it   infact i am really relieved that i am not going back there  if that was how she was acting toward me when i was awake how was she treating me while i was asleep
  so here goes the vicious circle the other day i got a letter from the bariatric surgeon i was going to have perform the gastric bypass   they in turn tell me after all the testing that i have ahad and  after almost   a yr and a half  and because i could not afford to go to lauderdale in fl  that  i  may not be able to afford my vitamins and due to the fact  that i am bipolar they are afraid that my meds will not absorb  after the surgey even though my shrink that i have been seeing for the last 3 yrs says i am going to do just fine  but they
say it is not in their best interest for the group to do my surgery to find another dr so i guess its back to the drawing board   so the long of the short is i cant have pain managment cause i am fat   i cant have surgery cause i am nuts  and i can not take the pain in my neck and back  due to the weight i am so  even though i am seeking help activley  no one will help someone who is disabled and isnt that sad in this country this day and age

i am in pain managment i have been for 2 yrs now and the dr keeps telling me that i have to have this surgery he feels it will be the only relife for me to get rid of the constant pain i have in my back and i am sick of taking pain meds i dont know why you get such a hard time when you know what you need and so do your drs 
  i have told the insurance company it makes no sense for them to keep paying medical bills that will be ongoing  than to pay for a tool that will give me far more results without taking a toll on my liver  i am sick of this  i am  trying harder than ever and even have my husband lossing weight as well

i have been letting everyone pull me down about my surgery  things have happened here with my husband having a very bad heart 
 but i am bound and determined to make the change that will save my life in the long run and  this tool will give me a fighting chance to keep it off instead of battling it coming on  right now i am taking meridia and i am loosing some but i have come to a standstill where i am staying at 331 so i dont know i am watching what i eat and getting the exercise i need  
 all i know is i am going to do this for me and no one eles is going to drag me down i dont want to get  to the point where i have a heart condition 

Well i found out that if i am going to have the surgery that i will have to see a bariatric shrink due to the factor that i have bipolar disorder i am on ssi and i only get 75 bucks a month i know there is no price on ones life  but i do not have the means to go on a regular basis to the other side of the state 
 So i guess i am at the end of the weight loss surgery journey but i am more gun ho now on my weight loss and am very aware of what i put in my body  i would recommend this journey for everyone who needs this in their lives  
 without all the things that  i have had to go thru i would have never learned about what i was doing to kill myself i know now what i am eating and how i was  eating  and to read  and read and read those lables no more buffets for me  they are really  a death trap if you have a problem with obesity 
  i have to say i am very dissapointed but i know also that my surgeon must be a great surgeon as he has put my health as the first priority and not  the all mighty dollar  i would strongly recommend him and his staff to everyone well i am going to write more later got to take care of my niece