raysbaby66
getting closer to the surgery
Mar 16, 2007
Today is the day that i get myself in the swing of things you know that take yourself by the seat of the pants and get moving off the couch i am leaving for georgia on tuesday i will be gone almost 3 weeks cant wait to see the grandbaby and our daughter she is 24 and keeps remiding me of this at every chance she gets things here are going well and for the most part i am really craving some sweets today and i am not without fault i know we all fall and give in thats what happened to me today was the st pattys day party at the meal site that we have where i live this place is for disabled and seniors i like it here alot , but when i go to the site they always seem to do things that will undo alot of things i have done yes i can say no but today i had a piece of cake and i feel guilty so i am trying to make sure i get a lot of walking and streching in .At this meal site they always have sweets like doughnuts and once a month we have a big cake for b day parties and such and the other days there are pies and all kinds of sweets i told the woman in charge that hey you are here to make sure people get proper nutrition but look at all this that is when she told me that she is not in charge of what people eat i said yes you are you put all this in front of people who have a very hard time saying no oh well what you going to do so now i am getting very active today well gotta go pack for georgia i will be back later
reflections
Mar 16, 2007
Getting excited about going to georgia. I am going to be there 2 weeks this also will help me pass time and not watch the days till I can think about the surgery. I do not have a date yet but it shouldn't be too long after I get back in April. I have waited a whole yr I feel taht it is a long time but I think I am more fortunate than some as I have seen others wait 2 yrs on here. I have heard in chat. I am hoping that I am not going to be in that situation. I will find out once my package is submitted I will cross my fingers and toes. Ok I called the dr friday I told him I still have swelling in my feet an dlegs. He told me to take my water pill 2 times a day and potassium the same. I should be a happy camper peeing all night long. NOT. Anyway maybe I won't wake up with them hurting and swollen. Let's hope this method works because nothing sucks like the pain in the back and legs at least to me anyway. I have alot family that are not in favor of me having my surgery. Telling me that if I get serious with myself I can lose it on things like slim fast etc etc etc. They also tell me things like well ray, my dh, is also obese but they tell me things like b4 he met you he went and lost weight I don't know why people like to do that to me. It's not like I am baking pies and cakes all day, sheeesh. I also tell them it has to do with the portions one consumes and the activity to burn the calories as well. I am not saying that I am a diet professional or handing out advice but I have learned a lot through this journey of mine and one thing I have learned that stands out is I don't take the blame for anyone else's weight nor do I blame mine on others. It is my decission of what I put in my mouth and how it is made and how much activity I include. I truly believe that food is a drug. Think about when you were a child and it was used as a reward and when people celebrate, and when we go out. It is all food related so yes food is a fix as well as any drug. I have learned through this process that life style change is also something that must be changed instead of going to dinner think about a light snack and a game of catch or something distracting so you don't really thing of it as exercise. Me I like to walk on the beach but I really haven't had that chance since I cam to ft myers almost 3 years ago. but i am going to start again all I know is I am ready for a new me. I am tired of sitting on the side lines watching time go by and life fly by. I was sitting and thinking today an dI was wondering how I went from 17 to 40. It somehow doesn't seem possible I went from having one child an dbeing married to having 3 grown childrean and 4 grandchildren where does the time go. This is another reason that I am having wls as I do not want to die at 50 I want to live a nice long active life I do not want to be the one sitting in the chair all the time. I know that this life style change will be a great deal different but it is something that I really really want and I can respect myself a lot more.
Is there a dr in the house?
Mar 16, 2007
Things have been pretty good lately. I got to go see my dad, grandma, brother and his family last weekend. It was really nice. They are about 3 hours north of where I live in florida ft myers area, but it was nice. I have switched primary care because I didn't feel that I was getting the service that I was entitled to. Besides his comming in and telling me not to come back until I loose weight, I told him if I could do that I wouldn't need the surgery to help me. I figured out at that point that I a common housewife was smarter than a dr who had all that education. Yes I am smarter that the dr becuase after he told me my problem was my weight it is killing me I told him wow you figured that out on your own? LOL Anyway needless to say I do not go there anymore.
miss me?
Mar 16, 2007
Well I haven't been on here in a little while. I guess I have been so depressed about all the trouble I am having getting this process done. But I am some what relieved at the same time as I know I am not the only one here deling with the same issue it is that fact from which I gain my determination and I won't lose sight of the "hugs" rewards that lay ahead. I have been all this time in pain management I am so sick of taking pills it isn't funny. Went to the primary dr and I was so winded when I was there he had to give me O2 and did an ekg on me. I have never had heart problems and I was praying that nothing was wrong with my heart. That would be all I needed getting ready to go into surgery. Anyway things were completely normal. I know this is really what I want to do to change my life.
negative comments
Mar 16, 2007
Negativity, I am so SICK of people telling me I am going to end up with so many health problems if I have wls. They all tell me why don't you diet. Hmmm, they must be related to the dr's that I see, right? Anyway I am off for my walk. I will write more later.
change me
Mar 16, 2007
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