Less than 3 weeks left and A is for

Jun 21, 2010

Wow. Time flys by so quickly. I am less than 3 weeks away from weight loss surgery. All ready mylife is changing in crazy and increidble ways. I started working inot my pre-op diet. Yes working into it. My doctor didn't say I had to do a pre-op diet. I could do a pre-op diet if I wanted things to "go better" and "improve your chances." so what I decided to do was 2 week of liquid protein diet and eat just dinner. I am on Monday of the week that will end this on thursday. I am not eating  "last meals". I am simply eating things I like. I want. Salad was high on this list. Yes Salad. I know I won't be having salad for a while and I really enjoy the crunchiness of a good salad and the textures and the flavors. the strange things  I am actually tasting my food. I  am actually EATING and CHEWING  my food. I am not just shoving, I am eating. Friday is two weeks until surgery. I will be eating a strictly liquid diet for the last two weeks.

My girl friend had surgery today. I adore her. We have been friends for a long time. (about 17 years) I haven't called her. Why haven't I called her? i am scared. What if....What if somthing went wrong? What if she died? yeah Iam worried about that. her blood pressure is higher than mine. Why can't I bring myself to call her? It is a phone call....good grief. Conny forgive me. I love you I will some how come to do this.


I am working on trying to use somthing else besides food when I get upset. This is HARD. I was talking to friends. Not really working I feel like I am just whining...no whinning allowed.


so I saw an alphabet thing on another blog. I like it so on occassion I ma going to blog A is for B is for ect....but mine is going to be for encouragment for myself not for my fat days. I need encouraging. who better than me??

A is for Avenue. Thsi is my new Avenue. I have always been blocked in my by closed walls and closed ideas. i am opening my self up to noew Avenues and learning new things. I will take my blinders off anf look at things realisticaly. WL surgery is just an road to get where I want to be. I am on my way!

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