almost 4 weeks F is forever

Aug 04, 2010

 The last 4 weeks have been somthing of a roller coaster ride. I really didn't  think it would be this hard. Infection  and nauseia have been my two biggest fights. Each day seems to be better than the last. It is funny I feel like I am eating and drinking all the time. However it is so little at a time it is not a big deal. If I wasn't eating I wouldn't get anywhere near enough.

I have really been thinking about how this is a forever choice. I am not always sold on the fact that I did this crazy thing to   myself . It is a forever change. I am sure when I am seeing more change and less contorversy.

f should also be for foreign. I often feel like my body speaks a foreign language that I do not always understand. Even simple things when my body says it to me I have to think about what it is saying.  "I have to go pee" is the one that seems to always perplex me. It is not the same as it was before. Who knows why this is. I am learning to understand my body each day. I hope sometime soon I learn this new language in my foreign body.

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