I is for Instant

Aug 26, 2010

Some how in the many years I have been fat I never expected things to change. I attempted to change them. Never did I get results I wanted so I had given up. Things wouldn't change. Since surgery I now have a tool to promote the change I desperately needed.

 I am not a patient person with myself. I somehow thought that after so many pounds I would look drastically different. Really? sheesh I still weigh over 350 why would I look thin? don't ask me because I don't have an answer for this. some how I thought I would instantly look and feel alot better. After all I lost alot of weight right? QWell I am having to learn to be patient with myself and my image. It is working, I am losing. I am losing fast. I just have to count things besides the size of clothes I wear and find a way to be happy tracking the changes and see what I have done. Remember the health changes that are coming about because of this.

I should have taken pictures. I didn't. I didn't meansure either I was too embarassed to look at how big I had actually become. Now I am sorry so I am doing from now pictures and measurements. I need somthing to compare so that I can see and track my progress.

So funny thing is. It never occured to my DH(dear hubby). That I would need clothing on my way down and our family budget is having to go through a re-vamp. So he just figured I would go down 3 or 4 sizes and wear big clothes? i don't know. I am trying to be resonable. Friends and people from my support group gave me alot of pantsl...just light on the tops. So it won't be so bad. I have a large bag of clothes to give one gal who I know can use them. I wish she could have my surgery too.
I kept one pair of my jeans so I can look back. I packed them in the next size of clothes down box so that I can pull them out and see how far I have come. I will do this with each size. I think it will help encourage me to keep going.

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