6 Months Post - Op

Dec 30, 2008

Well, another year is about to pass.  I'd like to say it was a good one, considering I was gifted with the opportunity to have weightloss surgery in July.  Things were going well, I was losing a couple of pounds a week and a large amount of inches off of my body.  I've dropped 4 dress sizes in 6 months and lost close to 90lbs.  Thats not too bad really, but I still have a long way to go. 
I can eat everything and anything.  Including sugar.  I do not vomit or dump.  So losing weight is a bit tougher for me.  The only change is the fact that I can't eat large amounts of food.  I do get the occassional heart palpitations when eating carbs or certain foods, but not often.
Sadly though, my excitement for weightloss has faded recently.  I lost my 19 year old son in November to a drug overdose.  Ever since his tragic death, I've lost barely 5 lbs.  My emotional eating has returned, and even though I still can't eat alot, it really doesn't matter what I put in my mouth.  I know that I won't get sick eating foods that aren't that good for me.
I was doing rather well with my treadmill, but ever since Dustin's death my treadmill has been an ornament in my living room.  I have no energy, or desire to even bother with exercise.  Mourning over Dustin's death has taken all of my will to succeed and my strength that weightloss just doesn't seem to matter.  I know it shouldn't be that way, but for now it is.
So hopefully, once we get through this holiday season, and a new year turns, I might be able to find a way to get back on track, but for now its just not even a priority.
Wishing all of my friends a safe and healthy New Year.

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