1 year and it's still slow going

Jan 12, 2009

Well, on December 27 I made a year and I'm at 170 pounds.  I'm actually at the point where I'm eating everything and nothing bothers me..... yicks..... this is very bad.......

On November 27th I lost my little brother after 11 days out of the surgery.....  I'm still in shock.... and depressed.....  I felt so much quilt since I encouraged him to have the survery.... and know this is not rational..... but my heart seems to think differently!

I really don't want to go into the details....yet... I know that we all go in knowing the possibilities.... he had many health issues... but none of it takes the pain away.  So, I've been eating out of depression... especially junk food.  At first I was down to 160 when it happened and gained back 10 pounds. 

I started going back to the gym and trying to watch myself but I'm having a hard time with the surgar cravings.. it's like I openned a can of worms, if you will!!!

That's all I can muster for now.

Good luck.

Rose

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