3 years!

Dec 29, 2010

Well it's been 3 years!  I was on a wonderful journey, was doing great, then my brother passed away from the surgery.  It messed me up real bad.  Had to deal with quilt since I encouraged him to do the surgery and told him everything would be alright and it wasn't.  But, I've learned to let go of that guilt and to forgive myself.   Needless to say, between coping with trying to finish my BA, the loss of my brother and my very distressful work environment and other life issues, I've started gaining weight.  So, far this year since April 2010 I have gained 20 pounds!!  BOOHOO.  But I have made a promise to myself that for the new year I will get back on track for myself and for my brother since he would be upset to know that after what I went through for this surgery and after he died for it.... it would be a crime for me to regain.  So, I have brought the Protein shakes and will start a very high protein low carb diet for the new year.

I will restart my journey filled with hope and if for nothing else, then for my little brother who lost his life trying to find it.

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