The countdown is on!

Jan 18, 2012

I go to Oahu tomorrow for all my pre-op stuff and a class at the hospital. Then we will go back on the 24th for my surgery on the 25th. Reality is really setting in and of course, all the fears. I am finding that I'm feeling anger that I am in this position. I don't remember if I felt this way when I was banded. I think it's because I started my liquid diet yesterday and my head hunger is giving me a run for my money. I think part of it is that I know there are some foods I may never eat again and the little kid inside of me is raising a ruckus!! The little brat! LOL! I know I'll be fine, even if there are complications. My surgeon is excellent, knows his stuff really well and I trust him. The pre-surgery is one of the worst times, I know. Been there, done that.

I freaked out late last week when I got on the scales and was at 257.8. I realized that I was fooling myself in what I was eating and that I was eating health amounts. And, I also realized that I should have been on a low card, high protein diet since I got my date.  Whipped me into high gear, although I still had a couple of pieces of Svetlana's birthday cake, full of carbs and gluten.  I emailed Mary to see if I had completely screwed things up and she said as long as I start my liquid by today, I should be good.  I went ahead and started it yesterday just to get a jump on it.  

So much has been going on and I've spend more time online than reading my passport. That has changed.  

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