sherri7794
Another sleepless night
Feb 07, 2011
Ugh, here I sit at 10 pm knowing I will be leaving for surgery at 4 am and I know there's no way I am sleeping tonight. I keep thinking about all the what ifs. What if I die? What if I have horrible complications? What if I am miserible not being able to eat the things I have turned to for comfort for years? What if I fail? My mind will not shut up. I know I am not the first and won't be the last person to go through this, but it's very nerve-racking.Today my youngest son (12 years old) came home and told me "Mom, my teacher said that your surgery is a major surgery and it's dangerous." What the heck is that woman thinking telling my child this? I mean he knows about the surgery and what to expect, but I didn't want him to have those details. That makes me so mad!
I have been praying a lot about this, but it doesn't stop my worrying and I didn't want my kids worrying more than they need to. I think I eased him mind some after we talked about it some more. I sure hope so!