Shystermom
I skipped March posting - now it's April already! 53 lbs down
Apr 10, 2009
I was overdue to post and way overdue to post photos (which I'll get to eventually). But my weight loss is going well. My blood pressure was doing well but is now back up. Then again, that could be the stress of work and the bad economy. I try to eat as much protein as possible and I do try to drink. I still eat bad foods and sugar unfortunately, however, because of the pouch, I can't eat too much. If I do have a bad day, such as eating 2 slices of pizza at a child's birthday party, I do not eat alot the rest of the day to balance out the carbs. I'm trying. I know there are those with the same surgery date as me who have lost incredible amounts of weight, such as 70lbs or more, but I am not in a race. It is amazing in a way that I don't dump at all, except on roast chicken for some reason, but that's ok with me. I am 46 years old. I have eaten enough roast chicken in my life at this point that if I can never have it again, I will survive. The fact that I can eat pizza and chocolate and not get nauseous or throw up will sustain me for the rest of my life. And again, thanks to the small pouch, since I can't have alot of anything, I try to keep all portions small. Even with the 2 slices of pizza - I don't eat the back crust and by the second slice, I'm mostly just eating the cheese off it. Still enjoyable.I have tried a cup of regular coffee only once since my surgery. As soon as I started drinking it, my heart seemed to race. It scared me and I won't try it again. It's ok. I am done with cafeine. It's nice not to be a slave to it anymore. Even decaf coffee is not something I crave. I would much rather drink Crystal Light or Propel water.
I am wearing a size 14 these days and enjoying it. I have not been a size 14 and 164lbs since before I was pregnant. Well, now my child is 9 1/2 so it's been almost a decade. When I see my reflection in the mirror, it is someone I used to know and I missed her. It is nice to get re-acquainted again. The photos I see of me at 222 lbs are shocking and sad. I was so miserable.
Will I lose more weight? I don't know. Time will tell. But if I maintained at 164 lbs the rest of my life and a size 14, I would be happy with this. I don't see myself running triathalons or drinking protein shakes into my 60's just to be 125 lbs. But I hope to settle in eventually at 137lbs. That was my goal weight, only because I liked the round number of an 80 lb weight loss. At this point, it's only 27lbs away and I am not strictly dieting or exercising regularly. So yeah, I think I'll get there. It has only been 4 months.
