Redoubling My Efforts

Sep 11, 2010

Today I felt fat for the first time in a long time.  It is time to redouble my efforts and remember what I was doing right.

An odd week, last week was spent with lots of traveling, uncertain foods and bad weather for walking.  The scale going up a pound and a halfwasn't as discouraging as the bloated feeling I got from not exercising like I wanted. 

I have know that I am still big.  But, I felt smaller, so much smaller, that it wasn't bothering me.  But, today I was feeling that "I want to be invisible" feeling again.  I countered it by going out into the public and chatting with strangers at a bazaar my town had.  It helped get my mind off of it and I felt my power again.  I also recited my affirmations that remind me of who I am.  I still feel a little shaky, but it will pass.  I am SO not going back to that "less than" existence. 

In the meantime, I am grateful for my friends here who even off-line keep me accountable.  I am thankful for those of you who read my blog and encourage me!  God bless.

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