150 Down

Nov 01, 2010

I was so excited last week that I finally, FINALLY broke that stall that I forgot why I wanted to so badly.  I've lost over 150 pounds now!  I am very excited!  I had lost quite a bit prior to my surgery, but it had gotten really hard and I struggled for every pound.  It's not easier for me now, it is just more successful.

At my lower weight, exercise is doable.  It's still a chore somedays.  Other days, it's something I enjoy.  But, I can do it.  Prior to surgery, my joints ached too much.  Exercise was painful and non-productive.  Now, it's more of a mental challenge, getting myself to follow protocol and just get it done.  Colder weather has forced me indoors.  I miss walking the trail outside at night, but I have a treadmill and I'm enjoying exercising with the TV on.  I'm working on my strength exercises which make me sore the next day, but there is a reason they are called strength exercises.  I feel stronger.  I like that a lot. 

I am days away from my five month anniversary.  It's amazing to me that it's only been that long since WLS.  I'm losing about 9 pounds plus change per month. 

Emotionally, well there are some challenges there.  Since I can't eat away my troubles, I tend to be less tolerant of people who are inconsiderate or who take advantage of me.  Close relationships are being challenged and the rules are changing.  The key is respect.  I give it and I need it.  I have begun to treat one loved one exactly as he treats me.  I can tell right now that he feels confused and angry about it, but after years of begging and pleading with him to be kinder, I've decided to mirror his actions instead.  I don't know how long it will take for him to get it, or if he will, and what that may mean, but I refuse to be treated poorly by people who proclaim to love me most. 

Best wishes to everyone who is on this journey with me.  Blessings to you as you bust stalls, reach goals and learn a new way to live life.

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